So, I'm almost done the paper. About half way. Asking for a 2 page paper on the definition of Relative Poverty in Canada is absurd, by the way... Mine's already 4 pages, and I haven't double spaced yet.
Anyways, so it got me thinking about being poor... which was the point, I would imagine. Anyways, I still think it is completely ridiculous that there are families in Canada, a reasonably wealthy nation, that live at or below Absolute Poverty, or the point where they can't logically survive. But I can see how it happens.
Did you know that the Canadian Government actually has no set definition of "Impoverished" or "Poor"? We talk a lot about "The Poverty Line"... I know I live below it. But "The Poverty Line" isn't actually a "line"... it's the "Low Income Cut Off" or LICO. It's just a gauge Stats Canada came up with years ago, that gets updated to show the amount of people who live below this Cut Off. Though it accounts for some things, it doesn't account for everything... Like Child Care. And the only stats I could find about Child Care stated that the average household in Ontario in 2005 spent only $645 per year. BOLOGNA. No frickin way.
Anyways, I'm starting to see really why people can get into such a bad spot. I'm hoping that maybe I can help. Eventually.
That's it for now.
If you're going to screw it up, do it BIG... people will think you're doing it on Purpose.
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February 11, 2007
Sunday: Bloody Sunday...
So, I'm feeling le icky today. Which in itself is strange: I only drank half the bottle of wine I bought, and it was a small bottle. Of white, even, which rarely makes me feel ill.
I bailed on D&D today too... When Larkin called, I'm pretty sure I'd only been asleep for an hour or two... Even though I know I was home by 3am, and I'm pretty sure she called before 10am... In any case, I need the extra time, so it really worked out for the best.
I spent the entire week putting off the Soc. assignment, thinking "oh, I'll just do it on Sunday, since it's due on Monday."
It wasn't until I looked at my calender when I got home last night that I realized that I don't have Soc. on Mondays... I have it on Tuesdays.
I have a test on Monday.
Ah, well... It's not so bad. The test on Monday is Eval. Info, which hits pretty high on the "holy crap, I'm going to die of boredom" scale. Actually, I've started entertaining myself in that class by challenging the prof when she say something like "Gender is simply defined: you're either male or female". THAT was a fun class. :) And the best part is that she seems to enjoy it! It gets people thinking, and that's what she wants.
Then on Wednesday, I have an assignment due for Placement which is becoming more and more daunting as the days go by: my resume. I have one completed, the one that I've been using for a while. I could just throw on some new information and call it a day, but then I realized that the formatting on the thing is horrendous. That, and as of right now, the only paid job I've ever had that's relevant to the field was the NUSU job. Damn it all!
But that's ok... I'm going to switch things up, and really put the focus on my volunteer experience (oh, I forgot to mention, but this is supposed to be a resume geared to the field of human services). It will still be 2 pages long (longer, if I include everything, which I probably won't), it will still look good, it will just be very different than what I'm used to.
So, as far as I remember, those are the big 3 for the week: the test, the resume and the assignment. Not too shabby, actually.
Now, on to minor matters... Liquor/Vagina night was absolutely awesome! I haven't had that much fun in a long time. There was dancing, there was Eve Ensler, and there was kereoke! Chante is one of the most outgoing, generally awesome people I've ever met... Except that she thinks I'm a lesbian. Yeah, aparently, she took us seriously when Colleen and I said we were "lovers"... Oh, well. I made it very clear to her how straight I am (the "who needs a man" discussion...), and all is right with the world.
Man I need a vacation... I've really started to miss South Carolina in the last few weeks. I'd just love to get away...
So anyways, I'm off... I actually have a lot to do today... Laundry, dishes... I should probably clean the washroom, because I haven't done that in a while. The paper will be priority today, and I should try to read some more Bradshaw tonight before bed.
If anything, it'll put me to sleep. :)
I bailed on D&D today too... When Larkin called, I'm pretty sure I'd only been asleep for an hour or two... Even though I know I was home by 3am, and I'm pretty sure she called before 10am... In any case, I need the extra time, so it really worked out for the best.
I spent the entire week putting off the Soc. assignment, thinking "oh, I'll just do it on Sunday, since it's due on Monday."
It wasn't until I looked at my calender when I got home last night that I realized that I don't have Soc. on Mondays... I have it on Tuesdays.
I have a test on Monday.
Ah, well... It's not so bad. The test on Monday is Eval. Info, which hits pretty high on the "holy crap, I'm going to die of boredom" scale. Actually, I've started entertaining myself in that class by challenging the prof when she say something like "Gender is simply defined: you're either male or female". THAT was a fun class. :) And the best part is that she seems to enjoy it! It gets people thinking, and that's what she wants.
Then on Wednesday, I have an assignment due for Placement which is becoming more and more daunting as the days go by: my resume. I have one completed, the one that I've been using for a while. I could just throw on some new information and call it a day, but then I realized that the formatting on the thing is horrendous. That, and as of right now, the only paid job I've ever had that's relevant to the field was the NUSU job. Damn it all!
But that's ok... I'm going to switch things up, and really put the focus on my volunteer experience (oh, I forgot to mention, but this is supposed to be a resume geared to the field of human services). It will still be 2 pages long (longer, if I include everything, which I probably won't), it will still look good, it will just be very different than what I'm used to.
So, as far as I remember, those are the big 3 for the week: the test, the resume and the assignment. Not too shabby, actually.
Now, on to minor matters... Liquor/Vagina night was absolutely awesome! I haven't had that much fun in a long time. There was dancing, there was Eve Ensler, and there was kereoke! Chante is one of the most outgoing, generally awesome people I've ever met... Except that she thinks I'm a lesbian. Yeah, aparently, she took us seriously when Colleen and I said we were "lovers"... Oh, well. I made it very clear to her how straight I am (the "who needs a man" discussion...), and all is right with the world.
Man I need a vacation... I've really started to miss South Carolina in the last few weeks. I'd just love to get away...
So anyways, I'm off... I actually have a lot to do today... Laundry, dishes... I should probably clean the washroom, because I haven't done that in a while. The paper will be priority today, and I should try to read some more Bradshaw tonight before bed.
If anything, it'll put me to sleep. :)
January 23, 2007
Be a Deer.
First off, I haven't posted in a while, and I'm sorry about that... I needed to sort out a few things. But thank you to all of my friends for being so supportive. Oh, and a special thanks to my sister Ashley for making her very first (I think...) comment on EpicSparky... She should definatly comment here more often.
I don't really want to discuss that post again yet, except to say that the majority of the issue(s) that surrounded that post have been resolved. I mean, some things obviously haven't been, but I'm in a less-violent frame of mind... we'll leave it at that.
So, I saw a deer today. On the hill on the way up to the school. I like seeing deer... It fills me with this wierd, nostalgic form of... I don't know, hope? Optimism? Serenity? Something good, anyways. And it made me feel a little stronger in my resolve. Every now and then, I realize how wishy-washy I am. My goals are usually a bit Jell-o-y, in that they wiggle and move and get squishy... and, unlike Jell-o, need firming up from time to time. But I feel, like I can do this. Like this isn't really as bad as it seems. Like I can handle it, all in stride.
Of course, that feeling may also come from the influx of CASH I'll be getting tomorrow. But, you know, deer rock too.
I have 2 assignments due tomorrow, on of which is finished, just needs a cover page and to be printed, the other is half done, I just need to rank order my values (hah!).
I really feel good right now. In a quiet, firm sort of way. I wish, though, I felt like this more often. I'm sure it will come with age... Aparently, a lot of things do.
That's all for now.
I don't really want to discuss that post again yet, except to say that the majority of the issue(s) that surrounded that post have been resolved. I mean, some things obviously haven't been, but I'm in a less-violent frame of mind... we'll leave it at that.
So, I saw a deer today. On the hill on the way up to the school. I like seeing deer... It fills me with this wierd, nostalgic form of... I don't know, hope? Optimism? Serenity? Something good, anyways. And it made me feel a little stronger in my resolve. Every now and then, I realize how wishy-washy I am. My goals are usually a bit Jell-o-y, in that they wiggle and move and get squishy... and, unlike Jell-o, need firming up from time to time. But I feel, like I can do this. Like this isn't really as bad as it seems. Like I can handle it, all in stride.
Of course, that feeling may also come from the influx of CASH I'll be getting tomorrow. But, you know, deer rock too.
I have 2 assignments due tomorrow, on of which is finished, just needs a cover page and to be printed, the other is half done, I just need to rank order my values (hah!).
I really feel good right now. In a quiet, firm sort of way. I wish, though, I felt like this more often. I'm sure it will come with age... Aparently, a lot of things do.
That's all for now.
January 8, 2007
Term II
Quick Post, as I'm waiting for the dust to settle on a few things. Here is my Schedual for Term II. There may be changes to this after tomorrow.
MONDAY
8:30-11:30 - Social Work and the Family
11:30-12:30 - Evaluating Information
2:30-5:30 - Acts, Policies and Procedures for Native Peoples
TUESDAY
8:30-10:30 - Sociology
10:30-11:30 - Human Services and the Law
3:30-5:30 - Interviewing II
WEDNESDAY
10:30-11:30 - Placement Integration pt 1
11:30-12:30 - Placement Integration pt 2
2:30-3:30 - Human Services and the Law
THURSDAY
3:30-5:30 - Interviewing II
FRIDAY
9:30-10:30 - Sociology
10:30-12:30 - Evaluating Information
I'm hoping to add at least 1-2 more classes in there, but we'll see what happens.
Here's the game plan for Today
-Work on the "Special Project"... It's kinda stalled out on me.
-Clean up... let's start the year off right
-Finish putting my lines on cards for TIoBE
-Start reading for Soc and Native Policies, because I already have the books
-Maybe go grocery Shopping... Maybe.
I'm still waiting to hear back from NUSU about the Vagina Monologues, but I'm going to start planning Audition Dates and stuff now... The script itself is just a locked PDF file on the website, so I only need about an hour to deal with that. It's finding a time that works for everyone that's going to suck... We'll see what happens. Someone might already be handling it, in which case, I won't even have to worry, but who knows.
Oh, and for those who don't already know, Rehersals for TIoBE (that's how I'm referring to The Importance of Being Earnest on here... it's just quicker) start Next Week, with rehersals on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday from 9:30-11:00pm, with some talk of adventures on Thursday Nights. I'd also like to go to a Conspiracy of Three before the year is out... it's increadably sad that I've been a student for 5 years now and have only been to an Ameture one. I know there's one tomorrow, but I think that might be a little too short-notice for some people.
Anyways, I'm oft for a bit... I'll probably post again later. I'm still working on putting Tabs on all of the posts (this is actually post 266, for the record), so you can check that out if you like. I know I can be hard to follow some times, so hopefully this will add a little clarity. I might also post some trip-pics on Facebook... If I do so, I'll note that here too.
Caio for now.
MONDAY
8:30-11:30 - Social Work and the Family
11:30-12:30 - Evaluating Information
2:30-5:30 - Acts, Policies and Procedures for Native Peoples
TUESDAY
8:30-10:30 - Sociology
10:30-11:30 - Human Services and the Law
3:30-5:30 - Interviewing II
WEDNESDAY
10:30-11:30 - Placement Integration pt 1
11:30-12:30 - Placement Integration pt 2
2:30-3:30 - Human Services and the Law
THURSDAY
3:30-5:30 - Interviewing II
FRIDAY
9:30-10:30 - Sociology
10:30-12:30 - Evaluating Information
I'm hoping to add at least 1-2 more classes in there, but we'll see what happens.
Here's the game plan for Today
-Work on the "Special Project"... It's kinda stalled out on me.
-Clean up... let's start the year off right
-Finish putting my lines on cards for TIoBE
-Start reading for Soc and Native Policies, because I already have the books
-Maybe go grocery Shopping... Maybe.
I'm still waiting to hear back from NUSU about the Vagina Monologues, but I'm going to start planning Audition Dates and stuff now... The script itself is just a locked PDF file on the website, so I only need about an hour to deal with that. It's finding a time that works for everyone that's going to suck... We'll see what happens. Someone might already be handling it, in which case, I won't even have to worry, but who knows.
Oh, and for those who don't already know, Rehersals for TIoBE (that's how I'm referring to The Importance of Being Earnest on here... it's just quicker) start Next Week, with rehersals on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday from 9:30-11:00pm, with some talk of adventures on Thursday Nights. I'd also like to go to a Conspiracy of Three before the year is out... it's increadably sad that I've been a student for 5 years now and have only been to an Ameture one. I know there's one tomorrow, but I think that might be a little too short-notice for some people.
Anyways, I'm oft for a bit... I'll probably post again later. I'm still working on putting Tabs on all of the posts (this is actually post 266, for the record), so you can check that out if you like. I know I can be hard to follow some times, so hopefully this will add a little clarity. I might also post some trip-pics on Facebook... If I do so, I'll note that here too.
Caio for now.
December 13, 2006
A-Pathetic?
Today, after I finished my super-easy Sociology exam and had a nice Chat with Meaghan, I noticed that one of the donation boxes for the Mattawa Shelter and the Transition House was still sitting out in the hallway. It was full of Donations.
So I sent out an email when I got to Larkin's house (2 mods of Arcanis lasting from shortly before I got there at 3pm to about 12:30am...), stating that someone should look into this, and that I'm still waiting for a response about what to do with the stuff still in my basement, and now in my Car. One class member offered up her storage-space, but no one has offered to help deliver donations. As I mentioned before, the Transition House simply doesn't have the space for the amount of stuff we collected (people are STILL approaching me asking if I'm taking stuff). I did get two emails back: one telling me that I "just keep going, and going, and going...", and the other addressed to everyone. It basically stated that they had gone to the Ojibway Women's Centre, and they didn't have storage either. So, she and another member of the class will be taking a "road trip" to Mattawa over the holidays to drop stuff off there.
I'm actually really concerned about what will happen to the rest of this stuff. I mean, looking at this realistically, the Mattawa Centre doesn't have a whole lot of space either. There are a lot of things that they're just not going to be able to take. People donated this stuff with the belief and understanding that all of the items would be donated to the Centres we discussed, and it's not happening. Also, I haven't heard anything about the Thank-You section in the Nugget yet... That greatly concerns me. There were a couple of places that only donated because they were assured the recognition (that they rightfully deserve) in the paper.
I don't know... The whole thing is just kinda disheartening. I thought people were really in this because they wanted to make a difference. Aparently, a lot of them really just wanted the grade. Congratulations are in order in that case: I don't think anyone (with 2 notable exceptions...) failed. Failed the class, that is.
I joke a lot about "You Fail At LIFE!!"... but things like this just really make me question whether you can actually fail 'life'. It's one thing to be a part of a regular class, make the grade and leave, but this... well, for me, it felt special.. It felt like something that we could really do, in the "real world", that would impact people. Lets face it, getting a 90% on a test, or an "A+", even a "D-" on a paper; it doesn't really effect anyone but you. I would have gladly taken a 50% in this class, if I knew that I'd made a difference for someone else out there. That's what makes things worthwhile for me: stepping back and saying, wow, I helped someone. I know that most people don't work this way, but it still makes me question... the whole "good people/bad people" debate. I don't know. It's late, and I"m frustrated and ranty. It just sucks to think that people can just walk away that easily... And it makes me think that maybe we shouldn't have given out the grades until after the project was completely finished, because some pepole aren't making good on promises they made that got them the grade that they got. People who said they'd turn up for the sorting part should have lost grades because the meeting got cancelled and no one questioned it, but the grades were already submitted at that point.
People in general get me. I just can't figure it out, and it really pisses me off. I hate being the only one that gives a damn... It's like swimming against the current all the time... eventually you just get too tired.
So I sent out an email when I got to Larkin's house (2 mods of Arcanis lasting from shortly before I got there at 3pm to about 12:30am...), stating that someone should look into this, and that I'm still waiting for a response about what to do with the stuff still in my basement, and now in my Car. One class member offered up her storage-space, but no one has offered to help deliver donations. As I mentioned before, the Transition House simply doesn't have the space for the amount of stuff we collected (people are STILL approaching me asking if I'm taking stuff). I did get two emails back: one telling me that I "just keep going, and going, and going...", and the other addressed to everyone. It basically stated that they had gone to the Ojibway Women's Centre, and they didn't have storage either. So, she and another member of the class will be taking a "road trip" to Mattawa over the holidays to drop stuff off there.
I'm actually really concerned about what will happen to the rest of this stuff. I mean, looking at this realistically, the Mattawa Centre doesn't have a whole lot of space either. There are a lot of things that they're just not going to be able to take. People donated this stuff with the belief and understanding that all of the items would be donated to the Centres we discussed, and it's not happening. Also, I haven't heard anything about the Thank-You section in the Nugget yet... That greatly concerns me. There were a couple of places that only donated because they were assured the recognition (that they rightfully deserve) in the paper.
I don't know... The whole thing is just kinda disheartening. I thought people were really in this because they wanted to make a difference. Aparently, a lot of them really just wanted the grade. Congratulations are in order in that case: I don't think anyone (with 2 notable exceptions...) failed. Failed the class, that is.
I joke a lot about "You Fail At LIFE!!"... but things like this just really make me question whether you can actually fail 'life'. It's one thing to be a part of a regular class, make the grade and leave, but this... well, for me, it felt special.. It felt like something that we could really do, in the "real world", that would impact people. Lets face it, getting a 90% on a test, or an "A+", even a "D-" on a paper; it doesn't really effect anyone but you. I would have gladly taken a 50% in this class, if I knew that I'd made a difference for someone else out there. That's what makes things worthwhile for me: stepping back and saying, wow, I helped someone. I know that most people don't work this way, but it still makes me question... the whole "good people/bad people" debate. I don't know. It's late, and I"m frustrated and ranty. It just sucks to think that people can just walk away that easily... And it makes me think that maybe we shouldn't have given out the grades until after the project was completely finished, because some pepole aren't making good on promises they made that got them the grade that they got. People who said they'd turn up for the sorting part should have lost grades because the meeting got cancelled and no one questioned it, but the grades were already submitted at that point.
People in general get me. I just can't figure it out, and it really pisses me off. I hate being the only one that gives a damn... It's like swimming against the current all the time... eventually you just get too tired.
November 26, 2006
Done.
I had a huge post on the topic at hand, but it was unexpectedly deleted when my computer overheated... So this is what I remember of what I said.
Shilly-Shallying is stupid. I'm sick and tired of waiting around. I've made my move, and nothing was done in return. Therefore, I'm making the attempt to move on. Colleen suggested that I start looking for something new, but I think it would be best for me to return to my previous way of thinking... I don't have time for the bullshit. I don't have time to wait. I really, really don't have the patience for indecision. I'm sick of being the leader... take ME by the hand for once, damn it.
Also, please, please PLEASE (and this is for everyone...) try to respect my decision to say no. When I say I can't make it to something, it's not because I'm trying to be a bitch and ruin your fun. It's because I'm really sick. And I'm really seriously tired. My body is beginning to deteriorate because of recent events (hence the hive/welt things for the last two days, and the flu that's lasted 3 weeks...), and when I tell you I can't do something, it's because I"m physically, mentally, emotionally, medically unable to do so. Don't guilt me. If you want to make me out to be the bad guy, fine... Whatever. I'll just walk away.
Oh, and if I say I'll do something, don't make me chase you for details. Don't make me call 500 times to get the where and when, and don't expect me to wait around. New rule: if you take more than an hour to get me the details, don't expect me to be there.
I have game tonight (which I do, actually, really want to do), I have a presentation and a final exam tomorrow and a test on Tuesday. Next Saturday, December 2nd, I may or may
be working at the SoS silent Auction (I need details on this, but I know that they're not confirmed yet...) and I will be a phone-operator for the Lions Children's Christmas Telethon from 10pm-11pm. I'm really looking forward to both of these things.
Cocktails and Cleavage is still schedualed for December 9th. All interested, please RSVP ASAP.
That's it for now. Sorry to vent, especially after such good things that have been happeneing, but I needed to say my peace.
Shilly-Shallying is stupid. I'm sick and tired of waiting around. I've made my move, and nothing was done in return. Therefore, I'm making the attempt to move on. Colleen suggested that I start looking for something new, but I think it would be best for me to return to my previous way of thinking... I don't have time for the bullshit. I don't have time to wait. I really, really don't have the patience for indecision. I'm sick of being the leader... take ME by the hand for once, damn it.
Also, please, please PLEASE (and this is for everyone...) try to respect my decision to say no. When I say I can't make it to something, it's not because I'm trying to be a bitch and ruin your fun. It's because I'm really sick. And I'm really seriously tired. My body is beginning to deteriorate because of recent events (hence the hive/welt things for the last two days, and the flu that's lasted 3 weeks...), and when I tell you I can't do something, it's because I"m physically, mentally, emotionally, medically unable to do so. Don't guilt me. If you want to make me out to be the bad guy, fine... Whatever. I'll just walk away.
Oh, and if I say I'll do something, don't make me chase you for details. Don't make me call 500 times to get the where and when, and don't expect me to wait around. New rule: if you take more than an hour to get me the details, don't expect me to be there.
I have game tonight (which I do, actually, really want to do), I have a presentation and a final exam tomorrow and a test on Tuesday. Next Saturday, December 2nd, I may or may
be working at the SoS silent Auction (I need details on this, but I know that they're not confirmed yet...) and I will be a phone-operator for the Lions Children's Christmas Telethon from 10pm-11pm. I'm really looking forward to both of these things.
Cocktails and Cleavage is still schedualed for December 9th. All interested, please RSVP ASAP.
That's it for now. Sorry to vent, especially after such good things that have been happeneing, but I needed to say my peace.
November 25, 2006
Success!
Tonight's Silent Auction raised just over $2700!! That's just the Auction and the ticket-raffle, so it doesn't include ticket sales. Throw ticket sales and donations into the mix, and you get almost $5000!!
Pretty friggin cool, eh?
So, needless to say, it was an awsome night. Well, that is, until I got home, and broke out in hives. Yeah, I don't really know why, or how long they've been there, but I'm covered in really ichy red blotches. yuck.
Anyways... I'm keeping this short, because I'm tired, and the rest of the weekend is looking to be... stupid. Just completely moronic on my part. But fun.
Tomorrow (Saturday)
10am to... lets say noon: Meeting for Multiculturalism
noonish-8pm: Arcanis
8pm-uh, later: pre-bash drinking at Karl's
Later-probably early morning: Trina's birthday bash
Sunday:
Well, times aren't completely set yet, but there's supposed to be a post-auction celebration at Michelle's in the early afternoon, then from about 7pm on, it's VtM at Ducky and Brian's.
After this, I'm going to inlist people in my quest to learn how to say "no". Judy said if I didn't, I'd burn out. Or, she'd beat me. One or the other...
o.O
Pretty friggin cool, eh?
So, needless to say, it was an awsome night. Well, that is, until I got home, and broke out in hives. Yeah, I don't really know why, or how long they've been there, but I'm covered in really ichy red blotches. yuck.
Anyways... I'm keeping this short, because I'm tired, and the rest of the weekend is looking to be... stupid. Just completely moronic on my part. But fun.
Tomorrow (Saturday)
10am to... lets say noon: Meeting for Multiculturalism
noonish-8pm: Arcanis
8pm-uh, later: pre-bash drinking at Karl's
Later-probably early morning: Trina's birthday bash
Sunday:
Well, times aren't completely set yet, but there's supposed to be a post-auction celebration at Michelle's in the early afternoon, then from about 7pm on, it's VtM at Ducky and Brian's.
After this, I'm going to inlist people in my quest to learn how to say "no". Judy said if I didn't, I'd burn out. Or, she'd beat me. One or the other...
o.O
November 21, 2006
When did that happen??
Dude... I think I'm kinda caught up.
I think. I'm not sure. It all happened so fast...
The only assignment I really have left to do is Multiculturalism. I have the oral part of my interviewing exam on Thursday, but there's not a lot of studying I can do for that...
Substance Abuse Assignment is Done.
Interviewing Assignment (a written one): Done.
History and Philosophy test: Done.
Sociology Assignment: Done.
Group Final: Done.
Group Journal: Done.
Group CLASS: Done!
But... What? I didn't even realize it! Then today, sitting here in the TLM lab waiting for class to start, I realized it...
I don't have to go to rehersal tonight, because it's a workshop. In fact, I've already told Carl that I'm not going. My Laundry is pretty much done. My dishes are done...
Could it be? Do I seriously have the night off??
I was almost giddy until I realize that tomorrow I have nothing to do between 12:30pm and 8pm. That damned near put me over the top. I giggled more than a little!
What ever will I do with this time? I've been begging for it for weeks, so I'd be a fool to waste it. I know I need to continue cleaning up my room, and that can be done in an hour... what else though?
Downloading missed episodes of Criminal Minds, House and Jericho!
Reading my script!
WRITING MY NANO!!! Good lord... If I have a 10K day on wednesday, I might even stand a chance... Well, a chance of getting half done, but still...
It's kinda strange... to think that for those two nights, I really have no obligation to anyone. Well, I might end up doing some meet-for-class type stuff, but nothing extra-curricular.
YAYS!!
By the end of today, I will have my exam schedual, too. Oh, and emails are going out tonight about Cocktails & Clevage, which is going to rock.
Infact, I think I'll do that now.
WHEEEEEEEEEE!
I think. I'm not sure. It all happened so fast...
The only assignment I really have left to do is Multiculturalism. I have the oral part of my interviewing exam on Thursday, but there's not a lot of studying I can do for that...
Substance Abuse Assignment is Done.
Interviewing Assignment (a written one): Done.
History and Philosophy test: Done.
Sociology Assignment: Done.
Group Final: Done.
Group Journal: Done.
Group CLASS: Done!
But... What? I didn't even realize it! Then today, sitting here in the TLM lab waiting for class to start, I realized it...
I don't have to go to rehersal tonight, because it's a workshop. In fact, I've already told Carl that I'm not going. My Laundry is pretty much done. My dishes are done...
Could it be? Do I seriously have the night off??
I was almost giddy until I realize that tomorrow I have nothing to do between 12:30pm and 8pm. That damned near put me over the top. I giggled more than a little!
What ever will I do with this time? I've been begging for it for weeks, so I'd be a fool to waste it. I know I need to continue cleaning up my room, and that can be done in an hour... what else though?
Downloading missed episodes of Criminal Minds, House and Jericho!
Reading my script!
WRITING MY NANO!!! Good lord... If I have a 10K day on wednesday, I might even stand a chance... Well, a chance of getting half done, but still...
It's kinda strange... to think that for those two nights, I really have no obligation to anyone. Well, I might end up doing some meet-for-class type stuff, but nothing extra-curricular.
YAYS!!
By the end of today, I will have my exam schedual, too. Oh, and emails are going out tonight about Cocktails & Clevage, which is going to rock.
Infact, I think I'll do that now.
WHEEEEEEEEEE!
November 19, 2006
Ack! Fner! *Dead.*
So much for weekend of working...
Things have gotten kinda looney, that's why I haven't been posting. There were assgnments and tests and parties... Ok, so it's my own fault, but there was craziness none the less.
People have been asking me why I haven't posted yet about the whole Kyle/NUSU/Fernley/CSRC/Meaghan/Moron fiasco. If you don't know what I'm talking about, feel free to email me and ask. Here's the reason why I'm keeping more tight lipped than usual about this.
I work at the NUSU/CSRC office. Canadore College is my current employer. Therefore, any statements I make can technically be seen as being representitive of NUSU/CSRC, and I don't want that kind of weight on my already sore head. Besides, Kyle, Sean, O'Doyle, even Fernley are people that I work with. They are acquaintences, even friends (not Fernley, but he's partly my boss...) and I don't feel right in taking a side. So, here's my official statement on the matter: I like Kyle. He's a good person. He's a good president. BUT, I haven't seen all the facts. Granted, it seems really, really out of character for Kyle to do what he was accused of (except for being late, but all execs are guilty of that...) But I can't say one way or another. I can't really get involved one way or another either, as I'm not a Nip Student. Same goes for Meaghan, even though I'm a Canadore student... I care that she lost her job, but I've heard some things that make me think that that wasn't an error... I've heard things to the contrary. I haven't seen any form of solid proof from either side proving anything.
Once something real, solid and unshakeable hits the deck, then I'll take a stance. Right now, I'll remain impartial.
Other than that, things are ok. The Silent Auction is progressing, there's a Raffle going on now, and there's talk of some other fundraising deals... Oi... they want to press this thing right upto december 8th. I think they're nuts. I think everyone (ok, ME) really, really needs a break.
School work is plugging along... It's a rough road though. Things don't always happen the way they should. Time... well, I'll leave it at that. I'm getting sick of repeating myself, and I know you're getting sick of it too. ;)
I've been practicing my interviewing skills. It's hard sometimes: we've learned a LOT in the last 3 months, and I find myself starting to forget some of the skills. That, and when I'm talking to people, I find I start sliding into the interviewing mode about halfway into the conversation, so I miss all the trust-building, introductory stuff. And, now I know how to end an interview, but It's just so hard to walk away sometimes. Especially when they want more: there's more questions, more things to explore. You can't just keep talking, but at the same time, sometimes you feel like you're shoeing someone away, and that that can make things worse. The hardest part for me is not interupting. I'm really bad for that.
Ugh... I just want a day off. I want a day where I can be caught up and done with everything. I want the satisfaction of realizing that there's nothing left on my to-do list, and that I've got it all done. But it never happens. I never get that moment of "ah...wow... I did it all." I don't get that shining moment where I stand in the middle of my (clean) bedroom with my (completed) homework, and smile and say: Finished! and then flop down on the bed. It just gets further and further away. And when I think I'm getting close, it's 3am, and I'm losing my mind. And I'm still not done. Or, at least it feels like 3am.
I don't know where to go from here. I want that satisfaction, but my body just can't take the stress anymore. I think it's possible to die of exhaustion... It seems like it would make sense. Your body doesn't rest, so it just shuts down bit by bit... Gah.
I don't know... I just can't keep it up anymore. We'll see what happens... I mean, things are starting to get lighter, but... gah. It's just a lot. That's all.
It's 9.30pm... I should probably get my homework for tomorrow done. It shouldn't take me long. Then I should do laundry and dishes. And I need to at least clean my room a little...
God, what a night.
Things have gotten kinda looney, that's why I haven't been posting. There were assgnments and tests and parties... Ok, so it's my own fault, but there was craziness none the less.
People have been asking me why I haven't posted yet about the whole Kyle/NUSU/Fernley/CSRC/Meaghan/Moron fiasco. If you don't know what I'm talking about, feel free to email me and ask. Here's the reason why I'm keeping more tight lipped than usual about this.
I work at the NUSU/CSRC office. Canadore College is my current employer. Therefore, any statements I make can technically be seen as being representitive of NUSU/CSRC, and I don't want that kind of weight on my already sore head. Besides, Kyle, Sean, O'Doyle, even Fernley are people that I work with. They are acquaintences, even friends (not Fernley, but he's partly my boss...) and I don't feel right in taking a side. So, here's my official statement on the matter: I like Kyle. He's a good person. He's a good president. BUT, I haven't seen all the facts. Granted, it seems really, really out of character for Kyle to do what he was accused of (except for being late, but all execs are guilty of that...) But I can't say one way or another. I can't really get involved one way or another either, as I'm not a Nip Student. Same goes for Meaghan, even though I'm a Canadore student... I care that she lost her job, but I've heard some things that make me think that that wasn't an error... I've heard things to the contrary. I haven't seen any form of solid proof from either side proving anything.
Once something real, solid and unshakeable hits the deck, then I'll take a stance. Right now, I'll remain impartial.
Other than that, things are ok. The Silent Auction is progressing, there's a Raffle going on now, and there's talk of some other fundraising deals... Oi... they want to press this thing right upto december 8th. I think they're nuts. I think everyone (ok, ME) really, really needs a break.
School work is plugging along... It's a rough road though. Things don't always happen the way they should. Time... well, I'll leave it at that. I'm getting sick of repeating myself, and I know you're getting sick of it too. ;)
I've been practicing my interviewing skills. It's hard sometimes: we've learned a LOT in the last 3 months, and I find myself starting to forget some of the skills. That, and when I'm talking to people, I find I start sliding into the interviewing mode about halfway into the conversation, so I miss all the trust-building, introductory stuff. And, now I know how to end an interview, but It's just so hard to walk away sometimes. Especially when they want more: there's more questions, more things to explore. You can't just keep talking, but at the same time, sometimes you feel like you're shoeing someone away, and that that can make things worse. The hardest part for me is not interupting. I'm really bad for that.
Ugh... I just want a day off. I want a day where I can be caught up and done with everything. I want the satisfaction of realizing that there's nothing left on my to-do list, and that I've got it all done. But it never happens. I never get that moment of "ah...wow... I did it all." I don't get that shining moment where I stand in the middle of my (clean) bedroom with my (completed) homework, and smile and say: Finished! and then flop down on the bed. It just gets further and further away. And when I think I'm getting close, it's 3am, and I'm losing my mind. And I'm still not done. Or, at least it feels like 3am.
I don't know where to go from here. I want that satisfaction, but my body just can't take the stress anymore. I think it's possible to die of exhaustion... It seems like it would make sense. Your body doesn't rest, so it just shuts down bit by bit... Gah.
I don't know... I just can't keep it up anymore. We'll see what happens... I mean, things are starting to get lighter, but... gah. It's just a lot. That's all.
It's 9.30pm... I should probably get my homework for tomorrow done. It shouldn't take me long. Then I should do laundry and dishes. And I need to at least clean my room a little...
God, what a night.
September 17, 2006
And then, there was food.
Hey All! Many thanks to Meaghan for keeping me nice and distracted this weekend. Glad I could be of service, and glad you could come shopping with me! And also, thanks to Brian and Ducky for making me giggle.
:)
So, another weekend. Funny, they don't seem to last that long. Yesterday I was bored out of my skull for a few minutes there, and I realized then that if I'm bored, it means I"m falling back into old habits. I can't do that. Not this time. So, I accomplished things. Nothing major, not half of the things I wanted to accomplish, but things nonetheless.
I cleaned my room! Go me!
I wrote out my definitions for Multiculturalism
I came up with some references for the Office Manager
I went to the bank and bled my wallet dry
I got food! Yay!
I watched Saved! It was good, better than I was expecting. No, Sarah, I haven't watched Garden State yet. It's still on the list though.
I got Meaghan hooked on Penn&Teller's Bullshit!, which rocks! I need to start downloading the 3rd season though.
No word from Nathan recently. That makes me kinda sad. Brian says that his new girl is really nice, and that she has a kid... I think that's great for him, and I want to see him happy. I really hope this works for him. I haven't heard from Todd either, not since crashing the hangover more than a week ago. At first, it made me sad. Then I realized, I actually don't care. Nor should I. Not to be harsh or anything, but it's the truth: He's Todd. He shows up and leaves as it's convienient for him. That's just the way he is. I don't really like that trait in a person, but oh well.
And on a related note (sort of) I've started having these... dreams. About someone I think most of you know (no, I'm not telling you who). They're very... good, very romantic dreams. And I do like the guy. I have for a while. See, he's seeing someone though. Someone most of you also know. It's frustrating on 2 fronts really... One, I really don't want a relationship, no matter what my unconcious mind is trying to convince me of, and Two... Even if I did, I can't have him. He's shown nothing but devotion to her for years now. Actually, since I've known him. This is why I hate dreams sometimes...
Actually, one of the guys in my class told me on Friday that he had a dream about me. It was kinda wierd... He just came up to me and started talking about this dream he had, that we were in this house, and we were surrounded by ghosts, and that only I could talk to them, and then I was looking at a clock, and making predictions of things that started happening... And all the while, I'm thinking... We talked for about 30 seconds when we met. Why are you dreaming about me? I know we can't control that, but... And he's a nice enough guy, not bad looking... He reminds me of Camron from Ferris Buler's Day Off (in looks, not actions), but something keeps coming back to why me? I've seen the people he hangs out with... they're the cheerleader types. I'm not exactly a cheerleader, so much as a squrril on speed. I'm a theatre geek, and he's trying to form a basketball team.
I'm so totally reading way, WAY too much into this. But it was just wierd. It threw me off. I don't know if I like it... I don't know that I don't like it either. It all seems a little bit too much like that time in grade school... the first person to ever ask me to dance did so on a dare. He was DARED to dance with me, and they all laughed and called me "peachy". He was one of the popular guys, and it felt so wierd to be asked to dance by someone like that... so wierd that it couldn't be real. Deep down, I think I knew it wasn't. I'm not saying that there's no possible way that he could hold intrest in me, because it's happened before so there must be something there... I'm just saying that there's no possible way it's... real. It's novelty or necessity or something.
Yeah...Anyways, enough of that. Moving on...
So, now I'm going to wash up, then go to bed. Tomorrow is my 8.30am-12.30pm day, and I get the feeling that it may run longer. Plus I want to get a start on some of the other assignments and things, so I can be ready for the wall of work when it hits. I lleave you with this:
A Student's Prayer
And now as I lay down to sleep,
I hope I'll make it one more week.
And if, at Six, I cannot wake...
A later bus I'll have to take.
:)
So, another weekend. Funny, they don't seem to last that long. Yesterday I was bored out of my skull for a few minutes there, and I realized then that if I'm bored, it means I"m falling back into old habits. I can't do that. Not this time. So, I accomplished things. Nothing major, not half of the things I wanted to accomplish, but things nonetheless.
I cleaned my room! Go me!
I wrote out my definitions for Multiculturalism
I came up with some references for the Office Manager
I went to the bank and bled my wallet dry
I got food! Yay!
I watched Saved! It was good, better than I was expecting. No, Sarah, I haven't watched Garden State yet. It's still on the list though.
I got Meaghan hooked on Penn&Teller's Bullshit!, which rocks! I need to start downloading the 3rd season though.
No word from Nathan recently. That makes me kinda sad. Brian says that his new girl is really nice, and that she has a kid... I think that's great for him, and I want to see him happy. I really hope this works for him. I haven't heard from Todd either, not since crashing the hangover more than a week ago. At first, it made me sad. Then I realized, I actually don't care. Nor should I. Not to be harsh or anything, but it's the truth: He's Todd. He shows up and leaves as it's convienient for him. That's just the way he is. I don't really like that trait in a person, but oh well.
And on a related note (sort of) I've started having these... dreams. About someone I think most of you know (no, I'm not telling you who). They're very... good, very romantic dreams. And I do like the guy. I have for a while. See, he's seeing someone though. Someone most of you also know. It's frustrating on 2 fronts really... One, I really don't want a relationship, no matter what my unconcious mind is trying to convince me of, and Two... Even if I did, I can't have him. He's shown nothing but devotion to her for years now. Actually, since I've known him. This is why I hate dreams sometimes...
Actually, one of the guys in my class told me on Friday that he had a dream about me. It was kinda wierd... He just came up to me and started talking about this dream he had, that we were in this house, and we were surrounded by ghosts, and that only I could talk to them, and then I was looking at a clock, and making predictions of things that started happening... And all the while, I'm thinking... We talked for about 30 seconds when we met. Why are you dreaming about me? I know we can't control that, but... And he's a nice enough guy, not bad looking... He reminds me of Camron from Ferris Buler's Day Off (in looks, not actions), but something keeps coming back to why me? I've seen the people he hangs out with... they're the cheerleader types. I'm not exactly a cheerleader, so much as a squrril on speed. I'm a theatre geek, and he's trying to form a basketball team.
I'm so totally reading way, WAY too much into this. But it was just wierd. It threw me off. I don't know if I like it... I don't know that I don't like it either. It all seems a little bit too much like that time in grade school... the first person to ever ask me to dance did so on a dare. He was DARED to dance with me, and they all laughed and called me "peachy". He was one of the popular guys, and it felt so wierd to be asked to dance by someone like that... so wierd that it couldn't be real. Deep down, I think I knew it wasn't. I'm not saying that there's no possible way that he could hold intrest in me, because it's happened before so there must be something there... I'm just saying that there's no possible way it's... real. It's novelty or necessity or something.
Yeah...Anyways, enough of that. Moving on...
So, now I'm going to wash up, then go to bed. Tomorrow is my 8.30am-12.30pm day, and I get the feeling that it may run longer. Plus I want to get a start on some of the other assignments and things, so I can be ready for the wall of work when it hits. I lleave you with this:
A Student's Prayer
And now as I lay down to sleep,
I hope I'll make it one more week.
And if, at Six, I cannot wake...
A later bus I'll have to take.
September 14, 2006
Good Stuff!
Today was awsome. I was elected Secretary, along with a girl named Rikki, for our Community Organization class (the fundraising class), I dropped STS, AND I have an interview tomorrow for the job at the NUSU/CSRC office!
ROCK!
I got some more studying done, which was good. I'm not all that ahead, but I'm still doing reasonably well. I think, at least.
I read Go Ask Alice and... Well, I was disappointed. I mean, I get that it's a true story, but it just seemed so... Random. And the ending was a bit of a let down. It was just strange. I guess, since I'm used to an actual "novel", that the "diary" set-up of the story was just too foreign. Oh, well.
It's almost 9pm. I'm thinking about doing some more studying. Maybe for interviewing. My Sociology Cards are up-to date with where the class is, and I can't start the substance abuse cards until I know how she's going to present the material. It's a little frustrating, but I'm sure I'll muddle through.
I have an appointment tomorrow with Anne Lawson. She's a personal counciler at Canadore. That will be interesting... Going over the story again. At least this time I'm not messed up seeking help, I'm just doing preventative maintnence.
I have a list of things to do this weekend, aside from watching the movies. I could maybe start some of that now... I'm tired, but I'm not tired enough to convince myself that I should sleep. Maybe in another hour or two. But I have to get a bunch of housekeeping stuff done this weekend, because the following weekend is already booked solid. I might even have to go grocery shopping... Joy. One thing Post-Secondary has taught me more than anything else: how to feel guilty for spending money. Blarg. Soon, though, I will have a job of some sort, and then I will spend... slightly more, and feel slightly less guilty about it.
One of my classmates (as I found out today) is Alex. Alex used to be Ana's roomate. The last few times I saw him, things were not so pleasant around that apartment, but now that a year has past, and aparently he spent some time in Africa, he seems... mellower. It's this kinda wierd kick to the past... And it's also strange that I don't really talk to Dave or Ana anymore, yet Alex shows up. Fate's got a bizarre sense of humor.
Oh, tomorrow... One more day, and then the weekend. And thank god for that... I can sense the edge of a "things are getting out of hand" episode, and I think I'm actually prepared to bite the bullet and head it off at the pass. It's nice to feel productive again, expecially when it comes to academics. Things had just started to get so... stale.
Ok... Homework. Definitions, Maybe some reading... Nothing heavy. I like it.
ROCK!
I got some more studying done, which was good. I'm not all that ahead, but I'm still doing reasonably well. I think, at least.
I read Go Ask Alice and... Well, I was disappointed. I mean, I get that it's a true story, but it just seemed so... Random. And the ending was a bit of a let down. It was just strange. I guess, since I'm used to an actual "novel", that the "diary" set-up of the story was just too foreign. Oh, well.
It's almost 9pm. I'm thinking about doing some more studying. Maybe for interviewing. My Sociology Cards are up-to date with where the class is, and I can't start the substance abuse cards until I know how she's going to present the material. It's a little frustrating, but I'm sure I'll muddle through.
I have an appointment tomorrow with Anne Lawson. She's a personal counciler at Canadore. That will be interesting... Going over the story again. At least this time I'm not messed up seeking help, I'm just doing preventative maintnence.
I have a list of things to do this weekend, aside from watching the movies. I could maybe start some of that now... I'm tired, but I'm not tired enough to convince myself that I should sleep. Maybe in another hour or two. But I have to get a bunch of housekeeping stuff done this weekend, because the following weekend is already booked solid. I might even have to go grocery shopping... Joy. One thing Post-Secondary has taught me more than anything else: how to feel guilty for spending money. Blarg. Soon, though, I will have a job of some sort, and then I will spend... slightly more, and feel slightly less guilty about it.
One of my classmates (as I found out today) is Alex. Alex used to be Ana's roomate. The last few times I saw him, things were not so pleasant around that apartment, but now that a year has past, and aparently he spent some time in Africa, he seems... mellower. It's this kinda wierd kick to the past... And it's also strange that I don't really talk to Dave or Ana anymore, yet Alex shows up. Fate's got a bizarre sense of humor.
Oh, tomorrow... One more day, and then the weekend. And thank god for that... I can sense the edge of a "things are getting out of hand" episode, and I think I'm actually prepared to bite the bullet and head it off at the pass. It's nice to feel productive again, expecially when it comes to academics. Things had just started to get so... stale.
Ok... Homework. Definitions, Maybe some reading... Nothing heavy. I like it.
September 12, 2006
Out for Blood...(Updated)
Update: Ok, I'm feeling calmer now. No, it's not Canadore's fault that Previous experiance isn't taken into concideration when they lay out our courses for us. Everyone gets lumped into the same things, and we have to change it later. Now, I might be a little more understanding if I'd seen the schedual in August and had chance to make changes then, but what can you do?
Anyways, nothing is fitting into the spot that is now empty, so I think I may have to just leave it and pick up extra next term. I'll have to do a bit of that anyways, but... c'est le vie.
I'm staying in my room for the rest of today, and no amount of chocolate, Firefly or alcohol is going to lure me out. Why am I doing this? For your own personal safety.
Today started well enough... I have all of my assignments, so far... but more on that later (oh, yeah, my schedual has changed again, so keep an eye out for that...), but then I got to STS: Student Success. I don't think I have ever been that insulted by a class before, ever. I'm sorry, but I have a BA. I took University Success, and passed with an 80%. I did my time, and now they want me in a class that looks like the rejects of Dangerous Minds? Uh, no. I know it sounds arrogant and pompus, but right there on that piece of paper I got, right under the Bachelor of Arts (Liberal) part, are the words "with all it's rights, privilages and obligations". And I figure that one of my rights, privilages and obligations, yes, all three, is to be able to say that I have this student thing down pretty good.
So, I went to Randy, and he Agreed. I'm no longer in Student Success. That leads me to my MONSTEROUS too do list for tonight:
1)Cancel Appointment with Dr. Idiot at the psych hospital. I've been putting it off.
2)Call GoodWill and get rid of the last of my old furniture.
3)Scour the Master List of courses and find SOMETHING else to take.
5)Dishes
6)Laundry
6)Resumes, cover letters for Ontario Works (meaghan distracted me last night... not that I'm upset or anything ;) )
7) Calender time. Yeah, already I have more due dates and tests than should humanly be possible, but I don't want to lose track of a single one of them.
8)Keep working on my notes... I have about 1/2 of Chapter 1 of my Sociology note cards done, mostly names and contributions. I should get that done tonight.
9)If I'm still this riled, MURDER, KILL, DESTROY!!!
And then maybe another update. You know, let y'all in on the carnage.
Anyways, nothing is fitting into the spot that is now empty, so I think I may have to just leave it and pick up extra next term. I'll have to do a bit of that anyways, but... c'est le vie.
I'm staying in my room for the rest of today, and no amount of chocolate, Firefly or alcohol is going to lure me out. Why am I doing this? For your own personal safety.
Today started well enough... I have all of my assignments, so far... but more on that later (oh, yeah, my schedual has changed again, so keep an eye out for that...), but then I got to STS: Student Success. I don't think I have ever been that insulted by a class before, ever. I'm sorry, but I have a BA. I took University Success, and passed with an 80%. I did my time, and now they want me in a class that looks like the rejects of Dangerous Minds? Uh, no. I know it sounds arrogant and pompus, but right there on that piece of paper I got, right under the Bachelor of Arts (Liberal) part, are the words "with all it's rights, privilages and obligations". And I figure that one of my rights, privilages and obligations, yes, all three, is to be able to say that I have this student thing down pretty good.
So, I went to Randy, and he Agreed. I'm no longer in Student Success. That leads me to my MONSTEROUS too do list for tonight:
1)Cancel Appointment with Dr. Idiot at the psych hospital. I've been putting it off.
2)Call GoodWill and get rid of the last of my old furniture.
3)Scour the Master List of courses and find SOMETHING else to take.
5)Dishes
6)Laundry
6)Resumes, cover letters for Ontario Works (meaghan distracted me last night... not that I'm upset or anything ;) )
7) Calender time. Yeah, already I have more due dates and tests than should humanly be possible, but I don't want to lose track of a single one of them.
8)Keep working on my notes... I have about 1/2 of Chapter 1 of my Sociology note cards done, mostly names and contributions. I should get that done tonight.
9)If I'm still this riled, MURDER, KILL, DESTROY!!!
And then maybe another update. You know, let y'all in on the carnage.
March 29, 2006
Bits and Squiggles
So, not too much is going on right now.
I finally got the Philosophy paper in, thanks to Mike's philosophy of "just get something on paper", and our talk about "does it always have to be an "A" paper?" Knowing that just throwing something down isn't going to disappoint anyone helps.
I'm still not feeling that great. Although, right now, I seem to be getting better... the disease appears to be working its way out of my system. I hope.
Tonight, the rollercoaster will be starting again. Tonight, I'm supposed to drop down my meds again. But, you know what? I think I'm going to wait. I think... at least until I get the Kid Lit paper on the go. Dropping back now would probably only make things more difficult than they really need to be. Especially while I'm sick.
Thoughts are kind of watery right now. Nothing substantial is really coming to me... beyond the piece from "the Simpsons" that keeps coming into my head...
Bart: Uh, say, are you guys crooks?
Fat Tony: Bart, um, is it wrong to steal a loaf of bread to feed your starving family?
Bart: No.
Fat Tony: Well, suppose you got a large starving family. Is it wrong to steal a truckload of bread to feed them?
Bart: Uh uh.
Fat Tony: And, what if your family don't like bread? They like... cigarettes?
Bart: I guess that's okay.
Fat Tony: Now, what if instead of giving them away, you sold them at a price that was practically giving them away. Would that be a crime, Bart?
Bart: Hell, no!
Yeah, I don't know either...
More later, if things go well...
I finally got the Philosophy paper in, thanks to Mike's philosophy of "just get something on paper", and our talk about "does it always have to be an "A" paper?" Knowing that just throwing something down isn't going to disappoint anyone helps.
I'm still not feeling that great. Although, right now, I seem to be getting better... the disease appears to be working its way out of my system. I hope.
Tonight, the rollercoaster will be starting again. Tonight, I'm supposed to drop down my meds again. But, you know what? I think I'm going to wait. I think... at least until I get the Kid Lit paper on the go. Dropping back now would probably only make things more difficult than they really need to be. Especially while I'm sick.
Thoughts are kind of watery right now. Nothing substantial is really coming to me... beyond the piece from "the Simpsons" that keeps coming into my head...
Bart: Uh, say, are you guys crooks?
Fat Tony: Bart, um, is it wrong to steal a loaf of bread to feed your starving family?
Bart: No.
Fat Tony: Well, suppose you got a large starving family. Is it wrong to steal a truckload of bread to feed them?
Bart: Uh uh.
Fat Tony: And, what if your family don't like bread? They like... cigarettes?
Bart: I guess that's okay.
Fat Tony: Now, what if instead of giving them away, you sold them at a price that was practically giving them away. Would that be a crime, Bart?
Bart: Hell, no!
Yeah, I don't know either...
More later, if things go well...
March 27, 2006
Doped up
Hey all.
I'm feeling somewhat better. Mostly because I'm high on cold medication right now. My face feels all warm and fuzzy! This learning presentation is going to ROCK!
That's right, I'm in class right now, waiting for my turn to present. The study I'm working on is actually pretty cool. It's kind of the same idea as what I'd like to do when I grow up: helping kids function in the world and whatnot. Coolness, yo.
I was accepted to Fanshaw. Got my letter this morning. It's cool: I know I'm probably not going to go there, but it's something. I should be hearing from the other schools by the end of this week.
Mike and I talked again last night. Funny, how when Mike and I talk, things seem to make more sense. His pitch is still "just get something down on paper", and I agree now: I highly doubt one paper filled with high-class jibberish is going to stop me from graduating. And that's all I need, is to graduate at this point. I've been doing some job hunting on opsrey.com and workopolis... It's looking like I might have some competition with people who have B.S.Ws and masters, but if demand goes up as much as it is supposed to, I should be ok.
Oh, lord... I'm high as a kite!
I should have charged admission for this.
Off I go!
I'm feeling somewhat better. Mostly because I'm high on cold medication right now. My face feels all warm and fuzzy! This learning presentation is going to ROCK!
That's right, I'm in class right now, waiting for my turn to present. The study I'm working on is actually pretty cool. It's kind of the same idea as what I'd like to do when I grow up: helping kids function in the world and whatnot. Coolness, yo.
I was accepted to Fanshaw. Got my letter this morning. It's cool: I know I'm probably not going to go there, but it's something. I should be hearing from the other schools by the end of this week.
Mike and I talked again last night. Funny, how when Mike and I talk, things seem to make more sense. His pitch is still "just get something down on paper", and I agree now: I highly doubt one paper filled with high-class jibberish is going to stop me from graduating. And that's all I need, is to graduate at this point. I've been doing some job hunting on opsrey.com and workopolis... It's looking like I might have some competition with people who have B.S.Ws and masters, but if demand goes up as much as it is supposed to, I should be ok.
Oh, lord... I'm high as a kite!
I should have charged admission for this.
Off I go!
December 5, 2005
Almost
*closes eyes*
*hands on table*
*deep breaths, focusing on being grounded*
"I will survive this. It is almost over. I can do this."
*few more deep breaths*
The above is a mantra that keeps going through my head. There is little more than a week left of classes... And I'm ok. I'm still shamefully behind, but other than that, I'm dealing.
I got the PSL essay done. Actually, I got it done and emailed to Sal at Exactly 3am after my last post. Nathan was increadably encouraging, using his whole battle analogies and such to make me feel less stuck.
Now I have the Director's Notebook. I decided to conquer it before the Romance Essay, for two reasons: 1)I'd rather do something that I'm good at, something that I want to do, before I throw myself into something that will be more horrendous than the PSL essay, and 2)Lucas does not accept late assignments. At all.
So, that, and Studying for my midterms, is basically the task for the next couple of days. After Wednesday, I can write the Romance Essay and the Dictionary report, and be done with all of it. YAY! The end is approaching!
Yeah!
*hands on table*
*deep breaths, focusing on being grounded*
"I will survive this. It is almost over. I can do this."
*few more deep breaths*
The above is a mantra that keeps going through my head. There is little more than a week left of classes... And I'm ok. I'm still shamefully behind, but other than that, I'm dealing.
I got the PSL essay done. Actually, I got it done and emailed to Sal at Exactly 3am after my last post. Nathan was increadably encouraging, using his whole battle analogies and such to make me feel less stuck.
Now I have the Director's Notebook. I decided to conquer it before the Romance Essay, for two reasons: 1)I'd rather do something that I'm good at, something that I want to do, before I throw myself into something that will be more horrendous than the PSL essay, and 2)Lucas does not accept late assignments. At all.
So, that, and Studying for my midterms, is basically the task for the next couple of days. After Wednesday, I can write the Romance Essay and the Dictionary report, and be done with all of it. YAY! The end is approaching!
Yeah!
November 16, 2005
Time Trials
Ok, so I'm going to test myself today.
I have 3 hours (well, I WILL in about 10 minutes...) between my classes. I want to see how much I can actually accomplish in that 3 hours, word count wise. No, this is not for Nano, it's for my Journals. If I have better than half of my Journals done, I can go to class tonight and not feel guilty about it.
So, I have exactly 10 minutes to grab snackfoods... then...
GO!
Progress Report #1:
ok, it's currently 4.14pm. So, in about an hour and 10 minutes, I've completed one 2+ page entry. (double spaced, of course...) That brings my word count to: 774. Not too bad, concidering there were a few false starts.
There isn't actually a word count needed for this thing, just 3 entries, about 2 pages each, total of about 6 pages.
And I'm 1/3 done!
So, I think I'm going to knit for a half hour, clear my head, then start up on Trial #2!
I have 3 hours (well, I WILL in about 10 minutes...) between my classes. I want to see how much I can actually accomplish in that 3 hours, word count wise. No, this is not for Nano, it's for my Journals. If I have better than half of my Journals done, I can go to class tonight and not feel guilty about it.
So, I have exactly 10 minutes to grab snackfoods... then...
GO!
Progress Report #1:
ok, it's currently 4.14pm. So, in about an hour and 10 minutes, I've completed one 2+ page entry. (double spaced, of course...) That brings my word count to: 774. Not too bad, concidering there were a few false starts.
There isn't actually a word count needed for this thing, just 3 entries, about 2 pages each, total of about 6 pages.
And I'm 1/3 done!
So, I think I'm going to knit for a half hour, clear my head, then start up on Trial #2!
Academic Prostitution
The title refers to something Larkin said today... How in order to take a University English course, you have to be willing to sell your Morals...
Or your sanity. Whichever.
So, there was snow this morning. And I admit, I was a little excited about it... Not because there was snow... I mean, this is November, in Northern Ontario. There's gonna be snow. What got me was that about 3 inches fell overnight. We went from a reasonably cool night to a blanket of the white fluffy stuff in under 8 hours, by my calculations. THAT's what got me. What's got me now, is the fact that that snow is gone, and it's now pouring down rain. Hey, weather? Make up your mind, k?
I've started into the whole lecture/assignment trade off thing. I do it every year, it just seems more dissappointing this time around. I found myself saying: you know, if I skip Drama tomorrow, even though we're studying Hamlet, and I *heart* Hamlet, I could probably buy myself about 3 mor hours to work on this, this and this. I know everyone does it... And, to be honest, I haven't actually "skipped" Drama yet (the classes I've missed were because I was legitimatly sick), but... I don't know. I know that prioritizing time is ok... It's just the idea of there not being enough hours in the day that I'm struggling with. That, and the fact that I get so wound up about things that I can't sit still anymore...
Assignments wouldn't be so bad, if they weren't assigned by profs and manditory...
I don't know what it is. I just HATE doing assignments. They seem to suck the life out of me. Even though I know they shouldn't... It's a very first-year thing to put everything off to the last second because you hate it. I mean, you would think I'd have learned by now...
In any case, I feel like re-warmed death right now... Emotionally drained, mostly. Conversations that I've had recently are taking their tole. I mean, I *did* get the whole application thing done today, and that needed to be done, yes. And, realistically, I couldn't have put it off. But still...
So, because I missed my work-day today, I'm going to make tomorrow a work day. Somehow. I will get the Kid-Lit Journals done, I have no choice. I would LOVE to get a start on my Notebook, but that will have to wait until my Philosophy papers (yeah, there's 2 of them now...) are done. And that will have to be done this weekend. Next week is going to have to be a ME ALONE week, or I'm not going to get everything done. Certain things, I may wind up taking the late penalty on, but you know, I haven't really ever done that before, so maybe I can afford it this once.
For now, I'm knitting. I'm pretty much surrounded in that Black Cloud thing that Mike keeps telling me about, so I have a lot of agression to work out. And I'm tired, and Knitting is pretty effective at putting me to sleep.
I think, just for the hell of it, I'm going to take my laptop to Kid Lit again. I got a whack of wordcount done for Nano last time (oh, and btw, I'm all-but calling Nano a lost cause again...), so maybe I can get some of the Phil film assignment done then. Multitasking always seems to work, and that class is relativly useless.
That's it for now.
Or your sanity. Whichever.
So, there was snow this morning. And I admit, I was a little excited about it... Not because there was snow... I mean, this is November, in Northern Ontario. There's gonna be snow. What got me was that about 3 inches fell overnight. We went from a reasonably cool night to a blanket of the white fluffy stuff in under 8 hours, by my calculations. THAT's what got me. What's got me now, is the fact that that snow is gone, and it's now pouring down rain. Hey, weather? Make up your mind, k?
I've started into the whole lecture/assignment trade off thing. I do it every year, it just seems more dissappointing this time around. I found myself saying: you know, if I skip Drama tomorrow, even though we're studying Hamlet, and I *heart* Hamlet, I could probably buy myself about 3 mor hours to work on this, this and this. I know everyone does it... And, to be honest, I haven't actually "skipped" Drama yet (the classes I've missed were because I was legitimatly sick), but... I don't know. I know that prioritizing time is ok... It's just the idea of there not being enough hours in the day that I'm struggling with. That, and the fact that I get so wound up about things that I can't sit still anymore...
Assignments wouldn't be so bad, if they weren't assigned by profs and manditory...
I don't know what it is. I just HATE doing assignments. They seem to suck the life out of me. Even though I know they shouldn't... It's a very first-year thing to put everything off to the last second because you hate it. I mean, you would think I'd have learned by now...
In any case, I feel like re-warmed death right now... Emotionally drained, mostly. Conversations that I've had recently are taking their tole. I mean, I *did* get the whole application thing done today, and that needed to be done, yes. And, realistically, I couldn't have put it off. But still...
So, because I missed my work-day today, I'm going to make tomorrow a work day. Somehow. I will get the Kid-Lit Journals done, I have no choice. I would LOVE to get a start on my Notebook, but that will have to wait until my Philosophy papers (yeah, there's 2 of them now...) are done. And that will have to be done this weekend. Next week is going to have to be a ME ALONE week, or I'm not going to get everything done. Certain things, I may wind up taking the late penalty on, but you know, I haven't really ever done that before, so maybe I can afford it this once.
For now, I'm knitting. I'm pretty much surrounded in that Black Cloud thing that Mike keeps telling me about, so I have a lot of agression to work out. And I'm tired, and Knitting is pretty effective at putting me to sleep.
I think, just for the hell of it, I'm going to take my laptop to Kid Lit again. I got a whack of wordcount done for Nano last time (oh, and btw, I'm all-but calling Nano a lost cause again...), so maybe I can get some of the Phil film assignment done then. Multitasking always seems to work, and that class is relativly useless.
That's it for now.
November 14, 2005
For the Greater Good
This post could also be refered to as Productivity at the Expense of Academia, or Mother Was Right...
Today begins "Le Suck: Season of the Unending Migrane". But why today? Because by the time the tests, assignmetns and exams are over, I'll be knee deep in Christmas shopping, wrapping, family and food.
Pass the Eggnog.
Nathan threw a very mild kitizzle at me this morning... So together, we came up with a compromise. Today, we shall accomplish things, in exchange for other things. He will exchange lying on the couch watching Troy for going to Yes! Employment services to update his resume, and then going Christmas shopping on what's left of his paycheque, and I will clean, study and make up my journals in exchange for Romance, the class that I no longer enjoy attending, Nanoing (which is beginning to look like a lost cause) and wild procrastination. THIS is not procrastination...It's a warm-up.
So, what needs to be done today?
1.Clean my room. Mom was right, I'm a slob. I accept that. Now I'm getting sick of it, and I'm running out of clean clothes again. So, unless I go on a shopping spree with the $0 I have, I'd better fire up the wash machines.
2. Study for Psych of Ed. The test itself shouldn't be too difficult, as I already knew a fair chunk of the material, and the rest of it is pretty common sense stuff. Nathan is coming back before 5pm to help me, so I'm going to be making up notes for that soon.
That may be all I get to today, as after class, Nathan and I have to make an apperance at Evolution Night Club for his cousin's birthday bash. His cousin is the bouncer, so there may be some cover/drink cost shenanigans, which could be a good thing.
Tomorrow, I will be: (after class)
1. Writing my kid lit journals. I seriously have NO inspiration for them. Like, I know what I want to say, I just don't know how to say it.
2. Reading the SparkNotes version on Ivanhoe for my romance paper. I know, I know... but as long as it's done, I can over-look the moral implications.
3. Starting my PSL essay. We've covered most of the material in class, it's just a matter of putting it together in a paper.
4. Starting my director's notebook. Nathan may be helping me with this, but not in an official context. More in a scribe context. He's a slow typer, but he works for kisses.
The Assignment I have for myself, should I get ANY of this accomplished, is my Nano. "Night of the Nano" died as fast as it was born. I can't remember if I actually updated my word count or not, but either way, I think I"m still short of 10K. I should be at 20K by now to be ontop of things. I'm sure Heather's done by now... *grumble* Either way, Like the Man, Chris Baty, says, Week Three sees the birth of many an Underdog, and I tend to be the queen of the underdog play.
Right, so Laundry. I'll update tomorrow when I've actually accomplished something. I'm good at making plans and lists, it's the followthru I need to work on.
*sigh*
Today begins "Le Suck: Season of the Unending Migrane". But why today? Because by the time the tests, assignmetns and exams are over, I'll be knee deep in Christmas shopping, wrapping, family and food.
Pass the Eggnog.
Nathan threw a very mild kitizzle at me this morning... So together, we came up with a compromise. Today, we shall accomplish things, in exchange for other things. He will exchange lying on the couch watching Troy for going to Yes! Employment services to update his resume, and then going Christmas shopping on what's left of his paycheque, and I will clean, study and make up my journals in exchange for Romance, the class that I no longer enjoy attending, Nanoing (which is beginning to look like a lost cause) and wild procrastination. THIS is not procrastination...It's a warm-up.
So, what needs to be done today?
1.Clean my room. Mom was right, I'm a slob. I accept that. Now I'm getting sick of it, and I'm running out of clean clothes again. So, unless I go on a shopping spree with the $0 I have, I'd better fire up the wash machines.
2. Study for Psych of Ed. The test itself shouldn't be too difficult, as I already knew a fair chunk of the material, and the rest of it is pretty common sense stuff. Nathan is coming back before 5pm to help me, so I'm going to be making up notes for that soon.
That may be all I get to today, as after class, Nathan and I have to make an apperance at Evolution Night Club for his cousin's birthday bash. His cousin is the bouncer, so there may be some cover/drink cost shenanigans, which could be a good thing.
Tomorrow, I will be: (after class)
1. Writing my kid lit journals. I seriously have NO inspiration for them. Like, I know what I want to say, I just don't know how to say it.
2. Reading the SparkNotes version on Ivanhoe for my romance paper. I know, I know... but as long as it's done, I can over-look the moral implications.
3. Starting my PSL essay. We've covered most of the material in class, it's just a matter of putting it together in a paper.
4. Starting my director's notebook. Nathan may be helping me with this, but not in an official context. More in a scribe context. He's a slow typer, but he works for kisses.
The Assignment I have for myself, should I get ANY of this accomplished, is my Nano. "Night of the Nano" died as fast as it was born. I can't remember if I actually updated my word count or not, but either way, I think I"m still short of 10K. I should be at 20K by now to be ontop of things. I'm sure Heather's done by now... *grumble* Either way, Like the Man, Chris Baty, says, Week Three sees the birth of many an Underdog, and I tend to be the queen of the underdog play.
Right, so Laundry. I'll update tomorrow when I've actually accomplished something. I'm good at making plans and lists, it's the followthru I need to work on.
*sigh*
November 9, 2005
1 down...
H'ok, so...
For those of you that didn't here the story: I got my Romance Report done 2 days ago, and as I was formatting it, the program imploded upon itself, shut down, and wiped out the half-days worth of work I'd done and hadn't saved. Let this be a warning to you all: don't rely on Auto-Save!!
In any case, I was so mad at the program, I couldn't even look at it until thismorning, and then it was only because the paper is due today. So it's done. Finished and printed off.
Cool. 1 down, 5 assignments, 2 midterms, a test, an exam and a horse-load or reading to go.
Woo.
Yeah, I still feel bad though. Nathan "gave" me this week (like, we havent' seen eachother all week, really) so I could get work done, and that's all I've gotten so far. I can tell he's disappointed, but I'm still working on things. I'm just a little on the slow side.
Right now, it's pouring rain outside, and I'm not totally sure if it's rain, freezing rain or wet snow. either way, if this paper wasn't due, I wouldn't have gotten out of bed today. I laid down for a nap last night at 7.30, planning to get up at 8pm, finish my paper and NaNo for a bit.
I woke up at 1.30 am... I didn't set the alarm right. And at that point, I was so tired that I just went back to bed. I woke up at 8am, got out of bed at 9.
I slept for over 12.5 hours last night. No wonder I'm not getting any work done.
Blah blah blah... Everything's coming together... but everything's coming together on top of me, so I'm too squished to care...
I think I need another nap.
For those of you that didn't here the story: I got my Romance Report done 2 days ago, and as I was formatting it, the program imploded upon itself, shut down, and wiped out the half-days worth of work I'd done and hadn't saved. Let this be a warning to you all: don't rely on Auto-Save!!
In any case, I was so mad at the program, I couldn't even look at it until thismorning, and then it was only because the paper is due today. So it's done. Finished and printed off.
Cool. 1 down, 5 assignments, 2 midterms, a test, an exam and a horse-load or reading to go.
Woo.
Yeah, I still feel bad though. Nathan "gave" me this week (like, we havent' seen eachother all week, really) so I could get work done, and that's all I've gotten so far. I can tell he's disappointed, but I'm still working on things. I'm just a little on the slow side.
Right now, it's pouring rain outside, and I'm not totally sure if it's rain, freezing rain or wet snow. either way, if this paper wasn't due, I wouldn't have gotten out of bed today. I laid down for a nap last night at 7.30, planning to get up at 8pm, finish my paper and NaNo for a bit.
I woke up at 1.30 am... I didn't set the alarm right. And at that point, I was so tired that I just went back to bed. I woke up at 8am, got out of bed at 9.
I slept for over 12.5 hours last night. No wonder I'm not getting any work done.
Blah blah blah... Everything's coming together... but everything's coming together on top of me, so I'm too squished to care...
I think I need another nap.
November 2, 2005
Sugar-free diet my ass...
*sigh*... it worked for all of 15 minutes...
It was my turn to bring snackfoods for Drama class, and, as I was partnered up with Dave, I followed a basic rule that is understood throughout our group: Dave will forget. I mean this with love, I swear!
In any case, I went to NoFrills, bought a whack of those little powdered sugar donuts, some butter tarts and a case of bottled water, figuring that there would be enough for everyone, and few leftovers.
Dave Remembered. And brought those little powdered sugar donuts and sale-priced halloween candy. Like JollyRancher suckers.
Damnit.
In any case, our fridge is now packed to capacity with juices, leftovers from Mike's curry, my potluck (veggie-cheese pasta and meaty-cheese potatoes), butter tarts and those friggin powdered sugar donuts.
Mom was right... it is an addiction. There were many moments of weakness (those few hours while I was in fact on the bandwagon...) where I nearly bought a chocolate bar. Is that bad? That I can't go one day sugar free? Oh well... Nathan promised me that he will still love me when I'm a fat diabetic in a trailer park...
So, I"m about to continue the Nano adventure. I'm debating posting exerpts... Maybe not yet... maybe later in the month. One thing's for sure... I'm going to need a hand-massuse by December 1st. Aside from the 50,000 words that is NaNoWriMo, I have a 1200 word essay, a 6 page journal, a 2 page seminar report, an 8 page essay (which we covered in class today, and should be friggin easy if I do it soon), my director's notebook, and a CD-Rom assignment all due this month. Plus, there will be updates to this site, posts on Xforums, Posts in the NaNoForums, and god only knows how many emails... Not to mention the Hibou articles with a deadline of Friday... Yeesh. My fingers aren't even numb yet. By December they'll have calluses. If anything, at least my typing skills should increase... I hope.
Right... Now I'm off to clear my bed, unhook my computer and type like a mad woman. Heather's already crossed the 10K mark, I'm sure, and I'd at least like to try and keep up with her a little bit this year.
Any donations of manicures or espresso will be greatly appreciated.
It was my turn to bring snackfoods for Drama class, and, as I was partnered up with Dave, I followed a basic rule that is understood throughout our group: Dave will forget. I mean this with love, I swear!
In any case, I went to NoFrills, bought a whack of those little powdered sugar donuts, some butter tarts and a case of bottled water, figuring that there would be enough for everyone, and few leftovers.
Dave Remembered. And brought those little powdered sugar donuts and sale-priced halloween candy. Like JollyRancher suckers.
Damnit.
In any case, our fridge is now packed to capacity with juices, leftovers from Mike's curry, my potluck (veggie-cheese pasta and meaty-cheese potatoes), butter tarts and those friggin powdered sugar donuts.
Mom was right... it is an addiction. There were many moments of weakness (those few hours while I was in fact on the bandwagon...) where I nearly bought a chocolate bar. Is that bad? That I can't go one day sugar free? Oh well... Nathan promised me that he will still love me when I'm a fat diabetic in a trailer park...
So, I"m about to continue the Nano adventure. I'm debating posting exerpts... Maybe not yet... maybe later in the month. One thing's for sure... I'm going to need a hand-massuse by December 1st. Aside from the 50,000 words that is NaNoWriMo, I have a 1200 word essay, a 6 page journal, a 2 page seminar report, an 8 page essay (which we covered in class today, and should be friggin easy if I do it soon), my director's notebook, and a CD-Rom assignment all due this month. Plus, there will be updates to this site, posts on Xforums, Posts in the NaNoForums, and god only knows how many emails... Not to mention the Hibou articles with a deadline of Friday... Yeesh. My fingers aren't even numb yet. By December they'll have calluses. If anything, at least my typing skills should increase... I hope.
Right... Now I'm off to clear my bed, unhook my computer and type like a mad woman. Heather's already crossed the 10K mark, I'm sure, and I'd at least like to try and keep up with her a little bit this year.
Any donations of manicures or espresso will be greatly appreciated.
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