Quick Post, as I'm waiting for the dust to settle on a few things. Here is my Schedual for Term II. There may be changes to this after tomorrow.
MONDAY
8:30-11:30 - Social Work and the Family
11:30-12:30 - Evaluating Information
2:30-5:30 - Acts, Policies and Procedures for Native Peoples
TUESDAY
8:30-10:30 - Sociology
10:30-11:30 - Human Services and the Law
3:30-5:30 - Interviewing II
WEDNESDAY
10:30-11:30 - Placement Integration pt 1
11:30-12:30 - Placement Integration pt 2
2:30-3:30 - Human Services and the Law
THURSDAY
3:30-5:30 - Interviewing II
FRIDAY
9:30-10:30 - Sociology
10:30-12:30 - Evaluating Information
I'm hoping to add at least 1-2 more classes in there, but we'll see what happens.
Here's the game plan for Today
-Work on the "Special Project"... It's kinda stalled out on me.
-Clean up... let's start the year off right
-Finish putting my lines on cards for TIoBE
-Start reading for Soc and Native Policies, because I already have the books
-Maybe go grocery Shopping... Maybe.
I'm still waiting to hear back from NUSU about the Vagina Monologues, but I'm going to start planning Audition Dates and stuff now... The script itself is just a locked PDF file on the website, so I only need about an hour to deal with that. It's finding a time that works for everyone that's going to suck... We'll see what happens. Someone might already be handling it, in which case, I won't even have to worry, but who knows.
Oh, and for those who don't already know, Rehersals for TIoBE (that's how I'm referring to The Importance of Being Earnest on here... it's just quicker) start Next Week, with rehersals on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday from 9:30-11:00pm, with some talk of adventures on Thursday Nights. I'd also like to go to a Conspiracy of Three before the year is out... it's increadably sad that I've been a student for 5 years now and have only been to an Ameture one. I know there's one tomorrow, but I think that might be a little too short-notice for some people.
Anyways, I'm oft for a bit... I'll probably post again later. I'm still working on putting Tabs on all of the posts (this is actually post 266, for the record), so you can check that out if you like. I know I can be hard to follow some times, so hopefully this will add a little clarity. I might also post some trip-pics on Facebook... If I do so, I'll note that here too.
Caio for now.
If you're going to screw it up, do it BIG... people will think you're doing it on Purpose.
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January 8, 2007
December 11, 2005
Hell Day, and the great Quest
Hell Day is that one day out of the term that every student experiances. This is the day when you realize that if you don't get everything done by tomorrow, you're screwed. For some poor souls, this day is actually a week. For me, it probably should have been a weekend...
The Great Quest for today is to get everything finished, even if I have to drown in coffee doing it. Nathan is here, making sure that nothing distracts me, and that I have nothing to worry about other than my work.
The Notebook is first. This one will likely be divided into segments: first, finish the script aspect. Second, the detailing, and third, the 1000 word essay explaining my choices. The essay will be dead simple, as everything I've done/changed was for a specific reason.
The Dictionary Report will be next, as it's the next shortest of the projects. It shouldn't take me more than an hour, and is relativly straight forward.
The Essay-Essay, that one will be a challenge. However, I've switched my book from Ivanhoe to 1984, and Caroline said that it's an easy read. All I have to do is prove that it's a romance, and Wikipedia will be helpful in that.
Really, it's not that much. It's noon now... I'm hoping to get all of this done with some time left over to study for the exam tomorrow.
Nathan is so awsome. He wants to do anything to help me. Sometimes I feel like I"m abusing that privilage, but he assures me that I'm not, and that helping me makes him happy, because it takes a load off my back.
I'll likely post again when I have everything done, and again at least once before I leave for the holidays. Seeing as North Bay is under about a foot of snow right now... I won't be going anywhere today.
Onward with the Quest!
9pm Update:
Well folks, 9 hours have passed, and part of the journey is complete. The "Notebook" part of the notebook is done, just lacking illustrations and notes which can be put in later on, and the essay part is nearing completion. I've read a summary of 1984, and I'm almost certain I can prove that it is a romance of sorts. I anticipate that within 2 hours, I'll be able to start that adventure.
As usual, things are taking a little longer than expected, but that's ok. I figured this would be an all nighter anyways, so I'm ready for it. After the essay, I'll whip up the report, then read some summaries of the novels from the course. That should be enough to refresh what memory I have.
The Great Quest for today is to get everything finished, even if I have to drown in coffee doing it. Nathan is here, making sure that nothing distracts me, and that I have nothing to worry about other than my work.
The Notebook is first. This one will likely be divided into segments: first, finish the script aspect. Second, the detailing, and third, the 1000 word essay explaining my choices. The essay will be dead simple, as everything I've done/changed was for a specific reason.
The Dictionary Report will be next, as it's the next shortest of the projects. It shouldn't take me more than an hour, and is relativly straight forward.
The Essay-Essay, that one will be a challenge. However, I've switched my book from Ivanhoe to 1984, and Caroline said that it's an easy read. All I have to do is prove that it's a romance, and Wikipedia will be helpful in that.
Really, it's not that much. It's noon now... I'm hoping to get all of this done with some time left over to study for the exam tomorrow.
Nathan is so awsome. He wants to do anything to help me. Sometimes I feel like I"m abusing that privilage, but he assures me that I'm not, and that helping me makes him happy, because it takes a load off my back.
I'll likely post again when I have everything done, and again at least once before I leave for the holidays. Seeing as North Bay is under about a foot of snow right now... I won't be going anywhere today.
Onward with the Quest!
9pm Update:
Well folks, 9 hours have passed, and part of the journey is complete. The "Notebook" part of the notebook is done, just lacking illustrations and notes which can be put in later on, and the essay part is nearing completion. I've read a summary of 1984, and I'm almost certain I can prove that it is a romance of sorts. I anticipate that within 2 hours, I'll be able to start that adventure.
As usual, things are taking a little longer than expected, but that's ok. I figured this would be an all nighter anyways, so I'm ready for it. After the essay, I'll whip up the report, then read some summaries of the novels from the course. That should be enough to refresh what memory I have.
September 5, 2005
Oddly Sentimental
I'm in what my mother would call a "softie" mood... happy to curl up with a book on a warm blanket with Snowy (my 21 year old teddy) and...Well, Willow was acting as an extra pillow, but she's sauntered off to beat on Bizzy.
I finally talked to Mom today. She and Dad have been on holidays for the last 2 weeks, and Ash moved into Brock today. Everyone's worried about her, but I think she'll be fine. She's one of those people who just fits in everywhere, so I'm sure, after a week of the flustered chaos that is Frosh, she'll find her niche.
I forgot to mention that I spent the weekend shopping. Oddly enough, I didn't buy much... I was with Vanessa. Some days I hate going into stores like Smart Set and Suzy Shier, especially when the fall line has just come out and everything is so rich and lux... and expensive. It was nice to have a girls day at the mall though... I've never done that before, except with Mom. Vanessa is great; she's always got something to say. It's funny to think that before a few weeks ago, we barely spoke, and all but hated eachother.
I did do a little impulse buying though... At Allisons. I got a book for class, so it was "worth while" in that sense, but I also got White Oleander (finally), and some other books that I'll Never find time to read. Though, I've made more progress on Little Women, and I'm nearly half way through.
In only a few more days, like will be returning to "normal", aka the calm before all hell breaks loose. Sarah's back in town (yay!), I understand that Geoff and Tabs are somewhere in the city, and Caroline's having a potluck tomorrow night. I'm planning to make a massive pot of spaghetti, and maybe brownies if I have the time. Oh, and if anyone knows where I can get a cheap casserole dish or lasagna dish, please let me know! I should stop at Rebuilt Resources too, and see if I can find a bookshelf.
I think I'll go to bed now. I should get up early and call the Lucky, aparently I got my job back, they just haven't caught up with me yet. After a few hours of watching live broadcast news out of Louisiana, I'd like to remind you readers of my previous post.
That's all for tonight. Cheers!
I finally talked to Mom today. She and Dad have been on holidays for the last 2 weeks, and Ash moved into Brock today. Everyone's worried about her, but I think she'll be fine. She's one of those people who just fits in everywhere, so I'm sure, after a week of the flustered chaos that is Frosh, she'll find her niche.
I forgot to mention that I spent the weekend shopping. Oddly enough, I didn't buy much... I was with Vanessa. Some days I hate going into stores like Smart Set and Suzy Shier, especially when the fall line has just come out and everything is so rich and lux... and expensive. It was nice to have a girls day at the mall though... I've never done that before, except with Mom. Vanessa is great; she's always got something to say. It's funny to think that before a few weeks ago, we barely spoke, and all but hated eachother.
I did do a little impulse buying though... At Allisons. I got a book for class, so it was "worth while" in that sense, but I also got White Oleander (finally), and some other books that I'll Never find time to read. Though, I've made more progress on Little Women, and I'm nearly half way through.
In only a few more days, like will be returning to "normal", aka the calm before all hell breaks loose. Sarah's back in town (yay!), I understand that Geoff and Tabs are somewhere in the city, and Caroline's having a potluck tomorrow night. I'm planning to make a massive pot of spaghetti, and maybe brownies if I have the time. Oh, and if anyone knows where I can get a cheap casserole dish or lasagna dish, please let me know! I should stop at Rebuilt Resources too, and see if I can find a bookshelf.
I think I'll go to bed now. I should get up early and call the Lucky, aparently I got my job back, they just haven't caught up with me yet. After a few hours of watching live broadcast news out of Louisiana, I'd like to remind you readers of my previous post.
That's all for tonight. Cheers!
September 4, 2005
A Note from Sparky:
Hello Readers.
I can't say that a whole lot of interesting things have been going on in my life recently. It's mostly same old, same old for me. So I don't think I'll use this post to update you on my life. I'll use this post to pass on some useful information.
The people of New Orleans, as well as the entire state of Louisiana, are suffering in ways unimaginable. They have nothing. No homes, no jobs, no food or shelter, clothing, water... Nothing. All they have is the prayers and generosity of those with the luck to have warm beds, microwave pizza and cash to spare. Any time help is needed, anywhere in the world, CANADIANS, like me, have stepped up to the plate, offering anything they can, from money, to food, to blood. If YOU would like to help the people of New Orleans, or Anyone in a time of tragedy and loss such as this, here are my top 3 ways to do so:
-The Canadian Red Cross: A lot of people don't like giving money. I don't, really, I like to be able to give blankets and food. BUT monetary donations are NECESSARY to cover costs of things like water and transportation and medicine.
-ONE.org Blog: This site provides a listing of at least 2 dozen organizations helping in the aftermath of Hurricane Katerina
-Canadian Blood Services: PLEASE: If you want to give blood, MAKE AN APPOINTMENT. Blood has to be properly stored, and DOES EXPIRE. In times like this, generous people line up to give blood, and storage can become an issue. Also, if too much is given at once, blood can expire BEFORE it can be used, and then it must be thrown out.
-[Edited to Add:] CanadaHelps.org: This was found on the Royal Bank's webpage. Another way to donate.
If you can't donate using any of these methods (I don't have credit/paypal accounts, and I can't give blood a)because of the tattoo, and b)because the fingerprick knocked me unconcious...), head to your local:
-Zellers
-WalMart
-Bank (pretty much any)
Most of these places have signs up saying that you can tell the cashier to add $X.XX to your purchase to help those in New Orleans.
And, if you feel like giving tangeable items, I would suggest donating canned goods to your LOCAL food bank. I know for a fact that most foodbanks are stretched year round. It's still helping your neighbors, they're just closer to home.
Lastly, most of you know that I'm not "religious" persey, but I would ask that everyone who happens across this little speck on the web take a moment and send good thoughts to the victems, the rescue workers, the missing, the lost, and the families of all of the above. Brainwaves are still waves.
Thanks.
I can't say that a whole lot of interesting things have been going on in my life recently. It's mostly same old, same old for me. So I don't think I'll use this post to update you on my life. I'll use this post to pass on some useful information.
The people of New Orleans, as well as the entire state of Louisiana, are suffering in ways unimaginable. They have nothing. No homes, no jobs, no food or shelter, clothing, water... Nothing. All they have is the prayers and generosity of those with the luck to have warm beds, microwave pizza and cash to spare. Any time help is needed, anywhere in the world, CANADIANS, like me, have stepped up to the plate, offering anything they can, from money, to food, to blood. If YOU would like to help the people of New Orleans, or Anyone in a time of tragedy and loss such as this, here are my top 3 ways to do so:
-The Canadian Red Cross: A lot of people don't like giving money. I don't, really, I like to be able to give blankets and food. BUT monetary donations are NECESSARY to cover costs of things like water and transportation and medicine.
-ONE.org Blog: This site provides a listing of at least 2 dozen organizations helping in the aftermath of Hurricane Katerina
-Canadian Blood Services: PLEASE: If you want to give blood, MAKE AN APPOINTMENT. Blood has to be properly stored, and DOES EXPIRE. In times like this, generous people line up to give blood, and storage can become an issue. Also, if too much is given at once, blood can expire BEFORE it can be used, and then it must be thrown out.
-[Edited to Add:] CanadaHelps.org: This was found on the Royal Bank's webpage. Another way to donate.
If you can't donate using any of these methods (I don't have credit/paypal accounts, and I can't give blood a)because of the tattoo, and b)because the fingerprick knocked me unconcious...), head to your local:
-Zellers
-WalMart
-Bank (pretty much any)
Most of these places have signs up saying that you can tell the cashier to add $X.XX to your purchase to help those in New Orleans.
And, if you feel like giving tangeable items, I would suggest donating canned goods to your LOCAL food bank. I know for a fact that most foodbanks are stretched year round. It's still helping your neighbors, they're just closer to home.
Lastly, most of you know that I'm not "religious" persey, but I would ask that everyone who happens across this little speck on the web take a moment and send good thoughts to the victems, the rescue workers, the missing, the lost, and the families of all of the above. Brainwaves are still waves.
Thanks.
August 31, 2005
Spamariffic
I was just informed (thanks, Vanessa!) that "This is me: Broke" has been hugely spammed. 5 comments, all crap.
This is the second time something like this has happened. I've closed comments for that post. If you'd like to comment on it, do so on this post instead.
Also, I've made some changes: I've turned on Blogger's spiffy little word verification dealie, so it will ask you to verify that you are infact a human being, and not a bot. Also, I've opened up the blog so that anyone can comment, not just Blogger's registered users. A few people have complained about this in the past. Fixed Now.
Thanks!
This is the second time something like this has happened. I've closed comments for that post. If you'd like to comment on it, do so on this post instead.
Also, I've made some changes: I've turned on Blogger's spiffy little word verification dealie, so it will ask you to verify that you are infact a human being, and not a bot. Also, I've opened up the blog so that anyone can comment, not just Blogger's registered users. A few people have complained about this in the past. Fixed Now.
Thanks!
August 25, 2005
Updated Schedual
For those of you who must know where I am at all hours (and aparently there are a few of you...) I've got my new schedual available for viewing. Note the changes. Note them....
Monday
Term I
Monday
-12.30-2pm: Genre I: Romance
-6.30-9.30pm: Psych of Educaiton
Tuesday
-10.30-11.30am: Kid Lit Lab
-12.30-3.30pm: Philosophy of Sex and Love
Wednesday
-12.30-2pm: Genre I: Romance
-6.30-9.30pm: Studies in Drama
Thursday
-6.30-8.30pm: Kid Lit
Fridays
-Still Off!!
Term II
Monday
-3.30-5pm: (Psych of) Learning
-6.30-9.30: Psych of Education
Tuesday
-10.30-11.30am: Kid Lit Lab
-12.30-3.30pm: Philosophy of Sex and Love
Wednesday
-3.30-5pm: (Psych of) Learning
-6.30-9.30pm: Studies in Drama
Thursday
-6.30-8.30pm: Kid Lit
Fridays
-Still Off!!
So, looks good so far. I'm waiting to hear back from Prof. Plumstead to see whether I can stay in Romance or not, since I didn't take the prerequisite.
But, some may be asking, why the change to Philosophy of Love and Sex? What happened to Adult and Child? Well, that, friends, is an adventure in Academic Advising I hope never happens again...
I went to see the Advisor today. I don't like the one I always end up stuck with, because she has this habit of making me feel like a complete moron, and I don't like feeling that way when it's not deserved. In any case, I sit down with her, and after some fiddling around, she finally does an audit of my cources to see where I'm at. After a few minutes and puzzled glances, she finally looks up and says: "Well, it's a good thing you came in here... You're Short!"
I stare at her like she has 3 heads and a purple horn. Short? But last year, the other advisor, Derrek, told me that I was fine! No, she says... This course, this course and this course don't count, but these ones, which aren't supposed to, will, because you're in Liberal Arts, and therefore you're 6 credits short to graduate.
Fuck.
So what do I do? Now I look like a deer in the headlights, and she's re-counting. "Well, I know it will bring your average down, but why not give up re-taking this Psych?" Well, yeah, I stammer, I guess I could... But I need a higher average this year, and I don't really have anything else I can take...
"Well, you can pick up one more full year first year course, or check out a few of the new options...Or something like (she wrinkles her nose) Philosophy of Love, or something..."
Bingo!
So that's how it happened. Besides, it's frigging SEX and LOVE. The two things I bitch about most, and their impact on modern culture. Hello, BIRD COURSE!! Woot.
Other than that, not much of intrest has been going on. Vanessa and I have been talking a lot more recently, which is good. We used to hate eachother, because she's Todd's Ex (like, nearly got married ex...), and he was sleeping with me at the same time he was sleeping with her, but it appears that our mutual "hatred" of that rancid sack of pond scum (which I say with the utmost love and respect...) has helped us develop an interesting bond. That, and we actually have quite a bit in common. So, that's cool. I love making new friends!
So, I don't really know what to do with myself now. That hour of waiting for an advisor, the 15 minute flurry of "Holy crap, I'm not gonna graduate!" and the following mad rush of drop/register/email everyone the new schedual kinda took its tole on me. Plus, I think both Mike and Josh are sick, which is making me leery of expending too much energy. I don't want whatever they've got. So I might just curl up and read. That's probably something I should do a LOT more of before the year starts up. I'm almost done Amber Spyglass (which means a little less than half-way through), and I've got about 4 billion other books to read... Maybe I should get cracking. And now that I don't have to review all my development notes, I'll have time for that.
Or I could take a nap. Whatev.
Monday
Term I
Monday
-12.30-2pm: Genre I: Romance
-6.30-9.30pm: Psych of Educaiton
Tuesday
-10.30-11.30am: Kid Lit Lab
-12.30-3.30pm: Philosophy of Sex and Love
Wednesday
-12.30-2pm: Genre I: Romance
-6.30-9.30pm: Studies in Drama
Thursday
-6.30-8.30pm: Kid Lit
Fridays
-Still Off!!
Term II
Monday
-3.30-5pm: (Psych of) Learning
-6.30-9.30: Psych of Education
Tuesday
-10.30-11.30am: Kid Lit Lab
-12.30-3.30pm: Philosophy of Sex and Love
Wednesday
-3.30-5pm: (Psych of) Learning
-6.30-9.30pm: Studies in Drama
Thursday
-6.30-8.30pm: Kid Lit
Fridays
-Still Off!!
So, looks good so far. I'm waiting to hear back from Prof. Plumstead to see whether I can stay in Romance or not, since I didn't take the prerequisite.
But, some may be asking, why the change to Philosophy of Love and Sex? What happened to Adult and Child? Well, that, friends, is an adventure in Academic Advising I hope never happens again...
I went to see the Advisor today. I don't like the one I always end up stuck with, because she has this habit of making me feel like a complete moron, and I don't like feeling that way when it's not deserved. In any case, I sit down with her, and after some fiddling around, she finally does an audit of my cources to see where I'm at. After a few minutes and puzzled glances, she finally looks up and says: "Well, it's a good thing you came in here... You're Short!"
I stare at her like she has 3 heads and a purple horn. Short? But last year, the other advisor, Derrek, told me that I was fine! No, she says... This course, this course and this course don't count, but these ones, which aren't supposed to, will, because you're in Liberal Arts, and therefore you're 6 credits short to graduate.
Fuck.
So what do I do? Now I look like a deer in the headlights, and she's re-counting. "Well, I know it will bring your average down, but why not give up re-taking this Psych?" Well, yeah, I stammer, I guess I could... But I need a higher average this year, and I don't really have anything else I can take...
"Well, you can pick up one more full year first year course, or check out a few of the new options...Or something like (she wrinkles her nose) Philosophy of Love, or something..."
Bingo!
So that's how it happened. Besides, it's frigging SEX and LOVE. The two things I bitch about most, and their impact on modern culture. Hello, BIRD COURSE!! Woot.
Other than that, not much of intrest has been going on. Vanessa and I have been talking a lot more recently, which is good. We used to hate eachother, because she's Todd's Ex (like, nearly got married ex...), and he was sleeping with me at the same time he was sleeping with her, but it appears that our mutual "hatred" of that rancid sack of pond scum (which I say with the utmost love and respect...) has helped us develop an interesting bond. That, and we actually have quite a bit in common. So, that's cool. I love making new friends!
So, I don't really know what to do with myself now. That hour of waiting for an advisor, the 15 minute flurry of "Holy crap, I'm not gonna graduate!" and the following mad rush of drop/register/email everyone the new schedual kinda took its tole on me. Plus, I think both Mike and Josh are sick, which is making me leery of expending too much energy. I don't want whatever they've got. So I might just curl up and read. That's probably something I should do a LOT more of before the year starts up. I'm almost done Amber Spyglass (which means a little less than half-way through), and I've got about 4 billion other books to read... Maybe I should get cracking. And now that I don't have to review all my development notes, I'll have time for that.
Or I could take a nap. Whatev.
August 21, 2005
April 29, 2005
Quick Note
Just letting y'all know what my grades look like as of this morning:
Intro Computers II: 70% (I got 55% in I.C. I)
Forensic Psych II: 66% (I got 63% in F.P. I)
Shakespeare: 74%
Prose Fiction: unknown
GPA: 67.8%. The goal is 70%. I'm getting there!
:)
Intro Computers II: 70% (I got 55% in I.C. I)
Forensic Psych II: 66% (I got 63% in F.P. I)
Shakespeare: 74%
Prose Fiction: unknown
GPA: 67.8%. The goal is 70%. I'm getting there!
:)
April 25, 2005
Sparky in the...Snow??
So, I'm home now. Exams are done, I'm all moved in/out/whatever. And I'm back on mother-lovin' dial-up.
It's April. Nearing the end of April, actually, and it was SNOWING here this morning. Uh... WRAONG!! *sigh*
So, here's the deal. I'm going to *try* and update once per week. I'm going to write stuff through the week, and just post it when I get chance.
Sorry, it's short... I've gotta go (tying up the phone line), but I'll be back soon.
The Epic Misadventures continue...
It's April. Nearing the end of April, actually, and it was SNOWING here this morning. Uh... WRAONG!! *sigh*
So, here's the deal. I'm going to *try* and update once per week. I'm going to write stuff through the week, and just post it when I get chance.
Sorry, it's short... I've gotta go (tying up the phone line), but I'll be back soon.
The Epic Misadventures continue...
March 31, 2005
Rainy Day Grey
So here I am, once again, in the computer lab, killing time. I kinda like it here. It's quiet, and the connection is faster. Anyways... an update.
The good doctors here have decided that it's time to try something called EffexorER, an extended release, low dose anti-depressant. Hopefully, it will raise my general mood enough that I can function as a normal human being again. I told my mother about it this morning. I don't think she likes the idea: she saw what Zoloft did to me, and she didn't like it at all. Well, we'll see.
It's raining. It's been raining all morning. I've felt nothing but down since I woke up. Maybe it's karma for last night's fun-overload, which I don't feel comfortable giving details about here... Too many people were involved. ;)
Waiting, waiting, waiting...
So, all I have left of the to-do list is my prose fiction stuff and an assignment for Shakespeare that will be a week late at this rate. whatever. I'm not that concerned about any of it right now. Exams are coming up soon, and so is my improv nite.
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That was yesterday. I didn't get chance to post it before leaving. I was in a pretty down mood all day yesterday. I'm not entierly sure why, but it has carried over a bit to today. I'm starting the medication tomorrow night, because I'm not sure how they will effect my sleep, and I have to be up early tomorrow: We're going shopping for Magic Cards. That's right, I'm a Magic the Gathering geek... Well, Newbie, but still. I'm learning, have been for a while, and hopefully soon, I'll have my own deck. We're actually having our own tourny , which should be interesting to say the least... 5 hours, we're thinking. 12 games in 5 hours? yeah, right...more like 10... anyways...
In any case... I'm off to bed. It's been a long day. I'll post more on Sunday. Sunday is going to be my work day.
The good doctors here have decided that it's time to try something called EffexorER, an extended release, low dose anti-depressant. Hopefully, it will raise my general mood enough that I can function as a normal human being again. I told my mother about it this morning. I don't think she likes the idea: she saw what Zoloft did to me, and she didn't like it at all. Well, we'll see.
It's raining. It's been raining all morning. I've felt nothing but down since I woke up. Maybe it's karma for last night's fun-overload, which I don't feel comfortable giving details about here... Too many people were involved. ;)
Waiting, waiting, waiting...
So, all I have left of the to-do list is my prose fiction stuff and an assignment for Shakespeare that will be a week late at this rate. whatever. I'm not that concerned about any of it right now. Exams are coming up soon, and so is my improv nite.
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That was yesterday. I didn't get chance to post it before leaving. I was in a pretty down mood all day yesterday. I'm not entierly sure why, but it has carried over a bit to today. I'm starting the medication tomorrow night, because I'm not sure how they will effect my sleep, and I have to be up early tomorrow: We're going shopping for Magic Cards. That's right, I'm a Magic the Gathering geek... Well, Newbie, but still. I'm learning, have been for a while, and hopefully soon, I'll have my own deck. We're actually having our own tourny , which should be interesting to say the least... 5 hours, we're thinking. 12 games in 5 hours? yeah, right...more like 10... anyways...
In any case... I'm off to bed. It's been a long day. I'll post more on Sunday. Sunday is going to be my work day.
February 24, 2005
"Old News": The Five Year Plan
First: New News: Exam Schedual got posted.
1. Forensic Psych - April 12
2. Computers - April 20
3. Shakespeare - April 21
So, that kinda sucks. Classes end on/about April 6th, which means I'm here for a week before my first exam, and have a week between my last 2. Oh, well, at least everyone's here with me this time. :) And, I can keep working until I go home and... Start working. And, I'll be home before my birthday! Cool.
Today, I got nothing accomplished. Though, I got my Shakespeare test back: 82%!! WOO! And I spent 5.5 hours in the Caf playing Magic the Gathering. Todd would be proud.
Now, on to "Old News"
The Five year plan/Introspective Riffraff
So, I did get flowers and candy. From my parents. Well, it's better than nothing.
Moving on…
It's Tuesday, and as yet, I've gotten all of nothing done. Little bit of studying, little bit of reading, but nothing substantial. And certainly not enough to get me where I'm supposed to be for this week. Tomorrow is my busy day: I have to drive mom to work, come home, go to my doctor's appointment, come home, drive Ash to work, hang around town for an hour, come home with mom, go get Ash from work and come home. Then, I guess, we're going for dessert at Nan's. Yeah. Oh, well. I'm just glad to be at home where I don't have to deal with real people.
Parental prodding has resurrected that pesky feeling of "what's next?" and "what's my 5 year plan?" I had one, at one point… It died when I realized what I should have been doing all along… Other people have them: Ana's going to be in school, Sarah's going to be in school, then going to Japan, Todd's teaching in Timmins, then overseas, then in BC (or something like that), Dave's going to live in a box behind the Lucky 13 (so says my dad…) and I’m ____. Going to school, getting my undergrad, then… Ok, so I have 1 year planned, 4 to go. Whatever. I shouldn't care. I worry too much, and I have too much to focus on right now: future planning should be a luxury, not a necessity.
It's all Valentine's fault. Too many lovey-dovey people in the vicinity, activating the maternal instinct and the desire to settle down… Bull-pucky, all of it. I never needed a significant other to make me feel worthy until high school. That first boyfriend: that's what does it. Killed it for everyone, he did. Have one, and you want more. Kinda like a chip, or a cookie, or an ice cold gin and tonic. God, I need a drink.
1. Forensic Psych - April 12
2. Computers - April 20
3. Shakespeare - April 21
So, that kinda sucks. Classes end on/about April 6th, which means I'm here for a week before my first exam, and have a week between my last 2. Oh, well, at least everyone's here with me this time. :) And, I can keep working until I go home and... Start working. And, I'll be home before my birthday! Cool.
Today, I got nothing accomplished. Though, I got my Shakespeare test back: 82%!! WOO! And I spent 5.5 hours in the Caf playing Magic the Gathering. Todd would be proud.
Now, on to "Old News"
The Five year plan/Introspective Riffraff
So, I did get flowers and candy. From my parents. Well, it's better than nothing.
Moving on…
It's Tuesday, and as yet, I've gotten all of nothing done. Little bit of studying, little bit of reading, but nothing substantial. And certainly not enough to get me where I'm supposed to be for this week. Tomorrow is my busy day: I have to drive mom to work, come home, go to my doctor's appointment, come home, drive Ash to work, hang around town for an hour, come home with mom, go get Ash from work and come home. Then, I guess, we're going for dessert at Nan's. Yeah. Oh, well. I'm just glad to be at home where I don't have to deal with real people.
Parental prodding has resurrected that pesky feeling of "what's next?" and "what's my 5 year plan?" I had one, at one point… It died when I realized what I should have been doing all along… Other people have them: Ana's going to be in school, Sarah's going to be in school, then going to Japan, Todd's teaching in Timmins, then overseas, then in BC (or something like that), Dave's going to live in a box behind the Lucky 13 (so says my dad…) and I’m ____. Going to school, getting my undergrad, then… Ok, so I have 1 year planned, 4 to go. Whatever. I shouldn't care. I worry too much, and I have too much to focus on right now: future planning should be a luxury, not a necessity.
It's all Valentine's fault. Too many lovey-dovey people in the vicinity, activating the maternal instinct and the desire to settle down… Bull-pucky, all of it. I never needed a significant other to make me feel worthy until high school. That first boyfriend: that's what does it. Killed it for everyone, he did. Have one, and you want more. Kinda like a chip, or a cookie, or an ice cold gin and tonic. God, I need a drink.
February 23, 2005
"Old News": The Obligatory Valentines Rant
So, here it is, "Old News" Post #1: The Obligatory Valentines Rant. You knew it had to be up here eventually. First, the Update...
Computers Midterm: Done. Don't think I did that well, but I have a compromise thing happening with myself. If all goes as planned, I should break Even.
Also: Finished Registering for all of my cources. I'm in a FULL, 30 Credit year next year, which I haven't truly done since first year. I'm in:
ENGL Genre: Romance
ENGL Studies in Drama (the Lit cource, not the Theatre one)
PSYC Learning
PSYC Psychology of Education
ENGL Children's Literature
PSYC Adult/Child Development
So, we carry on with the list. See how far I get tonight... I'll leave you with the Valentines Rant:
Be Still, my Bleeding Heart… (Written Feb 14/05)
So, here it is, ladies and gentlemen, another Valentines Day, and I'm alone. No posies or sweets from amorous suitors, no love letters, and no snugglies. I feel a bit torn about the whole affair. Valentines, really, is a Hallmark holiday, created to bolster the sales of cards, flowers and heart-shaped nickity-naks. St. Valentine, aparently, didn't even exist. So, being as pointless and commercial as it is, I shouldn't even be bothered with it…
On the other hand, despite the false sentimentality and the day's superficial nature, I would really like to be involved in a romantic relationship. I want to be swept off my feet, whisked off to a night of coffee and conversation, maybe a movie, and then plunge deeply into a sea of emotional and physical bliss. I want the gaudy flowers and the expensive chocolates. I want to lie in the warm embrace of another, not alone, at home, in a cold twin bed. Even if for one night, I want to be treated like the girls on TV, with astounded, testosterone-riddled boyfriends.
About 6 years ago today, I had my first experience of Valentines Day with a boyfriend… He dumped me. He said he didn't believe in the day, that it was a sham made up for inattentive husbands to make up for the other 364 days of neglect. Pretty astute for a high school senior who never graduated. Ever since, I've been alone on this day, not always out of choice. Last year, I received a single, long-stemmed rose from a close friend, and it made my day/week/month. At first it seemed silly and clichéd, but then I realized: It was a token of affection. It was some proof that, somewhere out there, there was someone who cared enough to buy into the hype for one day and celebrate the depth of our friendship.
By the look of things, I will be spending my Valentines alone at home until about 4pm, reading. Then Mom will probably bring home panzerottis, which is basically a medium cheese/ground beef pizza folded in half and deep-fried or baked, and then we'll go to Nan's for desert. A far cry from banter and innuendo over beers (which would have been perfect), but at least I will be spending time with people I love, and people who love me back.
I feel hollow inside. Like I want to cry, but what's the point. My last relationship was a classic (however failed) rebound, and barring that, I've (technically) been alone for better than 3 years now. I've had flings, and I have a deeply-rooted, spiritual/emotional/physical relationship, but nothing has, or will, come of any of them. In regards to the latter, he asked me when I last saw him, whether our relationship was hurting me more that it was benifiting me. He told me that he would "end it" (or cut ties) if it was (which would hurt me more than anything else he could possibly do, by the by…) I told him that it hurt, but I've accepted that that pain is a part of what we have, and I can deal with it. Tonight, I wonder. Only because, I know that there's a good chance that he won't be spending tonight alone. Then, I was healed. Tonight, it hurts. Not because of him, but because of me. I want things that don't, or can't, exist. We've been over this. It doesn't matter, really. Love is unyeilding, unfading and unfailing…At least, for me.
Computers Midterm: Done. Don't think I did that well, but I have a compromise thing happening with myself. If all goes as planned, I should break Even.
Also: Finished Registering for all of my cources. I'm in a FULL, 30 Credit year next year, which I haven't truly done since first year. I'm in:
ENGL Genre: Romance
ENGL Studies in Drama (the Lit cource, not the Theatre one)
PSYC Learning
PSYC Psychology of Education
ENGL Children's Literature
PSYC Adult/Child Development
So, we carry on with the list. See how far I get tonight... I'll leave you with the Valentines Rant:
Be Still, my Bleeding Heart… (Written Feb 14/05)
So, here it is, ladies and gentlemen, another Valentines Day, and I'm alone. No posies or sweets from amorous suitors, no love letters, and no snugglies. I feel a bit torn about the whole affair. Valentines, really, is a Hallmark holiday, created to bolster the sales of cards, flowers and heart-shaped nickity-naks. St. Valentine, aparently, didn't even exist. So, being as pointless and commercial as it is, I shouldn't even be bothered with it…
On the other hand, despite the false sentimentality and the day's superficial nature, I would really like to be involved in a romantic relationship. I want to be swept off my feet, whisked off to a night of coffee and conversation, maybe a movie, and then plunge deeply into a sea of emotional and physical bliss. I want the gaudy flowers and the expensive chocolates. I want to lie in the warm embrace of another, not alone, at home, in a cold twin bed. Even if for one night, I want to be treated like the girls on TV, with astounded, testosterone-riddled boyfriends.
About 6 years ago today, I had my first experience of Valentines Day with a boyfriend… He dumped me. He said he didn't believe in the day, that it was a sham made up for inattentive husbands to make up for the other 364 days of neglect. Pretty astute for a high school senior who never graduated. Ever since, I've been alone on this day, not always out of choice. Last year, I received a single, long-stemmed rose from a close friend, and it made my day/week/month. At first it seemed silly and clichéd, but then I realized: It was a token of affection. It was some proof that, somewhere out there, there was someone who cared enough to buy into the hype for one day and celebrate the depth of our friendship.
By the look of things, I will be spending my Valentines alone at home until about 4pm, reading. Then Mom will probably bring home panzerottis, which is basically a medium cheese/ground beef pizza folded in half and deep-fried or baked, and then we'll go to Nan's for desert. A far cry from banter and innuendo over beers (which would have been perfect), but at least I will be spending time with people I love, and people who love me back.
I feel hollow inside. Like I want to cry, but what's the point. My last relationship was a classic (however failed) rebound, and barring that, I've (technically) been alone for better than 3 years now. I've had flings, and I have a deeply-rooted, spiritual/emotional/physical relationship, but nothing has, or will, come of any of them. In regards to the latter, he asked me when I last saw him, whether our relationship was hurting me more that it was benifiting me. He told me that he would "end it" (or cut ties) if it was (which would hurt me more than anything else he could possibly do, by the by…) I told him that it hurt, but I've accepted that that pain is a part of what we have, and I can deal with it. Tonight, I wonder. Only because, I know that there's a good chance that he won't be spending tonight alone. Then, I was healed. Tonight, it hurts. Not because of him, but because of me. I want things that don't, or can't, exist. We've been over this. It doesn't matter, really. Love is unyeilding, unfading and unfailing…At least, for me.
February 22, 2005
Trainwreck in slow motion?
So, I'm back. I"ve actually been back for a few days, but I've been out doing... things. Like, a 24 hour Angel, Season 5 marathon. Mike, you ROCK. Anyways, now that I am back, I"m prepping. Prepping for the war. War of the Academics, specifically. Fighting for honour, valour and grades. Fighting Fatigue, mental blocks and the shakes, I will stand before the great academics and say "HAH!" Or drop dead. You know, whichever.
So, tonight's definatly my last relaxer night. Sucks, because I'm doing laundry and pretending to study. So, I'm writing tonight, then going on a few days of "hiatus". Does that mean I won't be posting at all? Hell no! I have about 5 posts from over reading week that never made it here for technical reasons. I'm thinking one every few days would be a good idea. Though, I've already covered most of the subject matter there, as I will again....
BOYS!!! Stupid, silly, immature little BOYS. Gah!! This whole running hot/cold thing has me really pissed off... I'm somewhat of a social creature, so I can't figure out this whole "I'll talk to you bunches one night, then go three weeks with nothing..." crap. CRAP! It's mean! Just pick one!
And for god's sake, will someone PLEASE set me up with a skinny, blond hot boy who's up for a hot party?? Like, really. I know it's only been about 3 weeks, but I'm in need. Stress triggers a need for release, and the erm... Manual method just isn't working for me.
Oh, and on a happy note, I start assisting in a grade 9 Essentials English class on Monday! Yay! One step closer to a profession that makes sense.
So, Look forward to some "old news" posts in the next few days, and my head exploding. Oh, and if anyone has any plans for rescuing me from this self-made hell, let me know!
So, tonight's definatly my last relaxer night. Sucks, because I'm doing laundry and pretending to study. So, I'm writing tonight, then going on a few days of "hiatus". Does that mean I won't be posting at all? Hell no! I have about 5 posts from over reading week that never made it here for technical reasons. I'm thinking one every few days would be a good idea. Though, I've already covered most of the subject matter there, as I will again....
BOYS!!! Stupid, silly, immature little BOYS. Gah!! This whole running hot/cold thing has me really pissed off... I'm somewhat of a social creature, so I can't figure out this whole "I'll talk to you bunches one night, then go three weeks with nothing..." crap. CRAP! It's mean! Just pick one!
And for god's sake, will someone PLEASE set me up with a skinny, blond hot boy who's up for a hot party?? Like, really. I know it's only been about 3 weeks, but I'm in need. Stress triggers a need for release, and the erm... Manual method just isn't working for me.
Oh, and on a happy note, I start assisting in a grade 9 Essentials English class on Monday! Yay! One step closer to a profession that makes sense.
So, Look forward to some "old news" posts in the next few days, and my head exploding. Oh, and if anyone has any plans for rescuing me from this self-made hell, let me know!
February 11, 2005
Another Day in Paradise
So here's the update, for those who may have missed it. I'll make it as short as possible.
Back in November, I told the manager where I work that if they needed me, and if they gave me notice, I would stay for my reading week and work. I thought, at the time, that it wouldn't bother me. I stayed last year, and I was fine. Well, this year, I"m totally stressed (as shown in the last post), and I NEED to go home for the week. Of course, I go to work to check the schedual, and I'm schedualed next week, on a Tuesday, for a THREE HOUR SHIFT, and then nothing until Saturday next. No notice, no nothing. The just assumed that what I said in November stood, without asking me. So, after much discussion with the parents, we've decided screw them, I"m going home until Friday night. I'll just call in sick. They don't really need me there, they just want someone there incase it gets busy. grr. I hate doing that. I have this guilt thing, where I feel like I"m doing something compleatly wrong and unacceptable by missing work even though I'm not deadly ill, which is something lots of people do all the time. So, this is eating at me, not to mention all of the other little things... I think, if I don't go home, I"m going to be very sick from stress, but I think not going in will make me feel worse.
Anyways, out of all this, the good points got a bit forgotten. I got a 73% on an essay in English, which made me very happy, and I think I did pretty well on a test in the same class, even after pulling a true all-nighterto study. That made me very happy, even though the happiness was killed by the work issue. I got a forensic psych test back too... 54.5%. Not so great, but that was my fault. Anyways, other good stuff has happened... Good company, fun stuff... I just can't think of it right now. I don't know... I hate how one bloody wretched event can blow a perfectly good week.
Anyways, here's another list; my To Do list for reading week:
- Work on Battle for Azurah as my Magnum Opus, part of it is due Monday.
- Study for Forensic Psych test on Tuesday back
- Study for JavaScripting Midterm on Wednseday back
- Re-write bits of Shakespeare Essay, due Thursday back
- Dr.'s appointment on Tuesday at home
- Read some of the books that Sarah left me with
- Visit with Nan and Grandad
- Valentines... might send out some emails or something
- Write some short stories
- Read King Lear (again), Timone of Athens and the other Shakespeare play for class
And that's before I catch the late bus back Friday night in time for my shift on Saturday. Grrr...
Anyways, I'm "sharing" some music with random people online (wink), and I'm looking for recommendations still... Bands, songs, music videos, or Flash Animations that I should have would ROCK. Leave them in the "Comments" section. I"m going to try and sleep tonight, I think. We'll see how things go.
Back in November, I told the manager where I work that if they needed me, and if they gave me notice, I would stay for my reading week and work. I thought, at the time, that it wouldn't bother me. I stayed last year, and I was fine. Well, this year, I"m totally stressed (as shown in the last post), and I NEED to go home for the week. Of course, I go to work to check the schedual, and I'm schedualed next week, on a Tuesday, for a THREE HOUR SHIFT, and then nothing until Saturday next. No notice, no nothing. The just assumed that what I said in November stood, without asking me. So, after much discussion with the parents, we've decided screw them, I"m going home until Friday night. I'll just call in sick. They don't really need me there, they just want someone there incase it gets busy. grr. I hate doing that. I have this guilt thing, where I feel like I"m doing something compleatly wrong and unacceptable by missing work even though I'm not deadly ill, which is something lots of people do all the time. So, this is eating at me, not to mention all of the other little things... I think, if I don't go home, I"m going to be very sick from stress, but I think not going in will make me feel worse.
Anyways, out of all this, the good points got a bit forgotten. I got a 73% on an essay in English, which made me very happy, and I think I did pretty well on a test in the same class, even after pulling a true all-nighterto study. That made me very happy, even though the happiness was killed by the work issue. I got a forensic psych test back too... 54.5%. Not so great, but that was my fault. Anyways, other good stuff has happened... Good company, fun stuff... I just can't think of it right now. I don't know... I hate how one bloody wretched event can blow a perfectly good week.
Anyways, here's another list; my To Do list for reading week:
- Work on Battle for Azurah as my Magnum Opus, part of it is due Monday.
- Study for Forensic Psych test on Tuesday back
- Study for JavaScripting Midterm on Wednseday back
- Re-write bits of Shakespeare Essay, due Thursday back
- Dr.'s appointment on Tuesday at home
- Read some of the books that Sarah left me with
- Visit with Nan and Grandad
- Valentines... might send out some emails or something
- Write some short stories
- Read King Lear (again), Timone of Athens and the other Shakespeare play for class
And that's before I catch the late bus back Friday night in time for my shift on Saturday. Grrr...
Anyways, I'm "sharing" some music with random people online (wink), and I'm looking for recommendations still... Bands, songs, music videos, or Flash Animations that I should have would ROCK. Leave them in the "Comments" section. I"m going to try and sleep tonight, I think. We'll see how things go.
December 23, 2004
Quickie
I don't have much time... I just wanted to take this chance to keep anyone who might possibly read this in the loop.
-I've started a fantasy novel, based on an old, OLD fanfic from 2 years ago. "Battle For Azurah" is complete up to Chapter 3. Also, I've been concidering converting part of it into an RPG, to provide some inspiration. It will be a while before it gets there though.
-I will begin house-hunting in January. I need a place, and where I am now has quickly lost it's title of "home". I need somewhere I can personalize to be my working space: somewhere I can go without being bombarded by spoilt children. So, apartment hunting I shall go.
-I have decided that I've grown entierly too soft. Therefore, New Years Resolution 2005 is to return to the gym. Strangly enough, that is also part of "Project: Roomate Avoidance..." I need to strengthen my arms, definatly, and re-shape my back. The muscles there are currently too weak to keep my shoulders straight and support my... ample assets. There had to be one down-side to them...
So, be assured, much work is being done. My connection (dial-up... blek) is preventing me from posting new material, but it is there, and will be here in early January.
My love, and a Merry Christmas. See you in '05.
-I've started a fantasy novel, based on an old, OLD fanfic from 2 years ago. "Battle For Azurah" is complete up to Chapter 3. Also, I've been concidering converting part of it into an RPG, to provide some inspiration. It will be a while before it gets there though.
-I will begin house-hunting in January. I need a place, and where I am now has quickly lost it's title of "home". I need somewhere I can personalize to be my working space: somewhere I can go without being bombarded by spoilt children. So, apartment hunting I shall go.
-I have decided that I've grown entierly too soft. Therefore, New Years Resolution 2005 is to return to the gym. Strangly enough, that is also part of "Project: Roomate Avoidance..." I need to strengthen my arms, definatly, and re-shape my back. The muscles there are currently too weak to keep my shoulders straight and support my... ample assets. There had to be one down-side to them...
So, be assured, much work is being done. My connection (dial-up... blek) is preventing me from posting new material, but it is there, and will be here in early January.
My love, and a Merry Christmas. See you in '05.
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