I'm in what my mother would call a "softie" mood... happy to curl up with a book on a warm blanket with Snowy (my 21 year old teddy) and...Well, Willow was acting as an extra pillow, but she's sauntered off to beat on Bizzy.
I finally talked to Mom today. She and Dad have been on holidays for the last 2 weeks, and Ash moved into Brock today. Everyone's worried about her, but I think she'll be fine. She's one of those people who just fits in everywhere, so I'm sure, after a week of the flustered chaos that is Frosh, she'll find her niche.
I forgot to mention that I spent the weekend shopping. Oddly enough, I didn't buy much... I was with Vanessa. Some days I hate going into stores like Smart Set and Suzy Shier, especially when the fall line has just come out and everything is so rich and lux... and expensive. It was nice to have a girls day at the mall though... I've never done that before, except with Mom. Vanessa is great; she's always got something to say. It's funny to think that before a few weeks ago, we barely spoke, and all but hated eachother.
I did do a little impulse buying though... At Allisons. I got a book for class, so it was "worth while" in that sense, but I also got White Oleander (finally), and some other books that I'll Never find time to read. Though, I've made more progress on Little Women, and I'm nearly half way through.
In only a few more days, like will be returning to "normal", aka the calm before all hell breaks loose. Sarah's back in town (yay!), I understand that Geoff and Tabs are somewhere in the city, and Caroline's having a potluck tomorrow night. I'm planning to make a massive pot of spaghetti, and maybe brownies if I have the time. Oh, and if anyone knows where I can get a cheap casserole dish or lasagna dish, please let me know! I should stop at Rebuilt Resources too, and see if I can find a bookshelf.
I think I'll go to bed now. I should get up early and call the Lucky, aparently I got my job back, they just haven't caught up with me yet. After a few hours of watching live broadcast news out of Louisiana, I'd like to remind you readers of my previous post.
That's all for tonight. Cheers!
3 comments:
I have spent quite some time reading and gathering you thoughts you have written. Although I dont really know you, I have met you. You do seem quite different and seem like you really dont have a clue what you need and or want! Even back then you did'nt know what you wanted but atleast you didn't let people "use you"!!..I guess what im saying is be a lady and be more respectful to yourself and stop putting yourself in harms way! It may seem like im being as "ass" but i think you need to hear someone tell you that!! There are people out there that care bout you and your wrong when you say that either ppl hate or love you and no in between!! You should try and look at the ppl that are looking at you and not the ppl that are just there when they want to be and not when you really need them!!
I know thats a lot of rambling but you need to hear it! Post this or not at least the most important person read it....YOU! Remember at least this, You are worth it and dont stand for any BS!
Regards,
The guy seldom seen in the back row.
Hello "guy in the back row":
You're right. I really don't have a clue what I want... I'm not sure anyone does, really. And I have realized that I've let down my guard and let people step on me more than I used to. I'm trying to fix that. I'm not sure how to "stop putting myself in harm's way", but I'm trying to be more concious of people around me, given what I know now about people in my life.
Maybe the issue is that I don't see people that are "looking at me"... just those who act. And those who act tend to be those who act badly. Again, I'm trying to work on that, but it will be as much a work in progress as the rest of my life.
That said, I would be interested in knowing who you are. You say that we've met... But that's prety vauge! ha ha...
If you don't mind, I'd like to talk to you. Please email me: SparkyintheSnow(at)gmail(dot)com.
I look forward to "meeting" you again!
Im sure that somewhere deep inside you do have a "clue" but I think that you think it is tooo unrealistic and that you if you do find it that you cant have it!..Well, why not?? Fight for it!
Im sure when you meet ppl you have certain reservations bout them! Ya YA i know, dont judge a book by its cover and you should get to know them better before passing judgment...well to that I say BAH for the most part! Your gut feeling is a powerful thing and it should be listened too more often than not, regardless if +/-!
I really dont mean to pry or preach in any way, it just hurts too see it happening to you. I by no means have it easy or have had a good outcome in a relationship in a while. Actually last 2 were quite gruesome! :S I dunno guess i seem to pick the winners and or the ppl I seem to think that want to be helped! Cant help the un-willing or the ones that are just plain BONKERS!! I usually can read females quite well, and it usually freaks them out. They like being hidden and unreachable!(aka readable) Guys must be given permission to enter that forsaken bubble!
Regards,
Guy in back row has now moved towards the middle row.
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