Urge to kill... steady...

Ok, so I'm insane. I think we've pretty much established that here. I take on more that I can probably handle, I procrastinate like it's a way of life, and I make mountains out of ant-hills. This much we already know. Cool? Cool. Just clarifying that...

Moving on...

I have a wierd feeling today... Something's just felt strange for a week or so now... Something in the air, making people act wierd and making wierd things pop out of nowhere. But today, I actually *feel* wierd. It's hard to explain: Like I know I have lots that I need to do, and that I want to do. My body has the energy to do it. My mind's a little foggy from sleep, but I still feel like I'm up to the job. However, all this energy is just trapped inside me, so instead of being useful and getting things done, I just feel... twitchy. Nervy. Confined in my own body. I hate this. I've felt like it before, but right now it's frustrating because I have so much to do that I need this energy to...I don't know, release? Be free! Mobleize? something like that.

Nathan's on his way here...again. He left his smokes in the car, and is going insane. Poor Blighter. But I know that he'll come here to grab his smokes, wind up staying until I have to go for class... I thought we already talked about this? Grr. I don't blame him, I mean, he needs his nic-fix. But I still feel this want for some alone time. Especially at 10am, the morning I lead a seminar. I'm sure he'll read this and get all edgy again... I don't want him to. I just don't see why we need to see eachother every day. He's not going anywhere, he promised. And I'm not going anywhere either... At least not till Mid December. Though, this could just be me being frustrated with things I'm not actually frustrated with: part of that whole pent-up-energy thing.

I think it's my room. I've slacked off the cleaning before, but it's a hole right now. Maybe that's scattering energy or something. It could be the weather too. I mean, sunny, cloudy, raining, sunny, cold, warm, cold... PICK ONE, DAMNIT. At least then I'd know how to dress.

In any case... I'm going to try and pick up a bit of my room, the I'm going to... I don't know, read some more? When I was reading earlier (yeah, I got up at 7am. Something's obviously wrong there...), I felt calm, relaxed...a bit more focused. Maybe that's what I need to work on today.

I'll probably write up my seminar report after romance, then Nano after Drama, so I should probably clean up my work space first. All the clutter and scattered papers might be messing with my ability to think. That, and having candy wrappers everywhere is not helping the whole no-sugar thing... I actually fell off the wagon (already) yesterday via maple dipped donut. But that's ok... I ate a bunch of fruit salad and rice to make up for it. I still need to drink more water, if only to flush out my system a bit. I"m still sore, and every now and then I still feel a bit feversh, but I think it's getting better.

Ok, now to clean...

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