I got to go home today. Only for about an hour, and it was only a dream, but I had no idea how much... I dreamed that I was there, and when I woke up, I wanted to go back. And I never wanted to leave that place.

It's just the flu. there's nothing that they can do, I just have to let it run it's course. And now I know that this is a sign. A sign that I took my ability to do too much for granted. I have no time, and no will and no energy, because I took those things and used them for others before myself. I don't think I can fix this.

Yes, there are doctor's notes, and understanding profs who would give me time, but to be knocked back like this...I can't go back to sleep. I don't think I'll wake up.