April 11, 2006


I'm starting to keep track of things going on for me... in a more written format. Things that I can't really put up here.
I've started a "Bible" that contains spots where I can keep track of how much water I drink, how many servings of veggies, my goals for the week, whether I exercise or not, and something I call a Mood Monitor, which allows me to write down how I'm feeling when... see if there's any patterns in my moods.
Thing is, everyone gets so caught up in internal workings, whether our brains are working right, and our souls are aligned right, karma, energy points and all that... and that's fine. But I've noticed that there are exterior things for me... Surface things. I've gained a lot of weight in the last while. Dr. Meeks (Who I'll be seeing regularly once I get home) thinks that it could be a side effect of the Effexor, the withdrawl... all that. I'm not so sure. I think it's laziness.
Yeah. I'm lazy. We all knew that. I've got a lot of fixing to do. We all knew that too. I've been working on the cleaning thing, but that's more to avoid writing the essay.

I feel strange. I don't know why.

1 comment:

Beatrix said...

Sometimes it really does help to track moods and whatever else is going on when you find yourself in a particular mood. I know that for myself, I notice that my moods get really bad when I'm not exercising enough or eating well. Sometimes we don't see petterns, but once we write things down, it becomes really clear.

You seemed a little better when I saw you after the exam; and Nathan said he'd noticed that you seemed to be feeling better as well. I really hope you are, and I hope that things start to pick up for you soon. As always, my offer to help either of you guys in any way stands, unconditionally. Even if they only way I can help is by making obnoxious posts in your blog in the hope of making you laugh. Thus: