Be Advised:

"Due to financial issues, the light at the end of the tunnel will be shut down until further notice."

I love that quote.

Actually, that little light is getting bigger and bigger. I'm almost done the essay (I had a minor issue last night, and needed to bow out of finishing it last night for my sanity's sake), and I have HUGE ideas for the director's notebook. And, it appears as though I will have the entire weekend to get completely caught up, or at least mostly, which is a good thing. It's an up-hill battle, but at least I'm going somewhere.

Mike and I had a conversation the other night which did 2 things: make me uncomfortable, and renew my sense of purpose. Mike has makes a hobby of asking hard questions which, while they really make you think, can put you on the spot. Sometimes I don't mind that, but having just returned from a rather intensive lecture, I was a bit tapped out. Still, he helped me realize that these things I have to do are just that: things I have to do. They're not something I have to throw my entire intellect into, just jobs that need to get done so I can move on to the next one. That makes things a lot easier. Angela put it as "it's just one essay, in one class, in one term, in one year, in one degree in your career, which isn't that big a part of your entire life", but that can be reversed back into my fear: in order to get to the career, I have to pass the class, by writing the paper. But now I see that it's just a thing that I have to do. That's all. Not that big a deal, just a lot of meaningless work, because not everything can have meaning.

Other than that... work sucks. I got a shift this week because someone called in sick, but other than that, I still have nothing. And I'm down to $40 spending cash, which has to go towards the bus fare to Yorkdale on the 14th so I can go home. The paycheque I will get next week will go to my Kitchen Party (I'll be making up veggie plates, cheese and cracker plates, dips and probably brownies-from-a-mix and the like, plus there will be gifts for all who attend, and little things for those who can't). If you want to come and haven't emailed me yet, or gotten the email, just leave a message here. Bring whatever you like (the bar will not be open, so contributions of booze will be muchly appreciated), and bring pepole too! I'm hoping to start things aroun 3.30, but you're allowed to show up and leave whenever you like. I know some people won't be making it until after 8pm, but that's ok. I'll have festive movies to last all night, and the food will be replenished continuously!

Right, well, my break is up. I'll update when I have the paper done.

Onward!