Dear D.S.G:

Three years of friendship will end with this. It's sad, and stupid, and I hate us both for it.

I hate myself for not being more patient (though others would say I've been more than patient with you...). I hate myself for not being able to help, and I hate myself for putting up with everything for so long, and not standing firm.

I hate you for not trying. Not attempting to fix what was so obviously wrong, only because of your own fear of confrontation. I hate you for the times you've abused my emotions, my faith and my trust: and you have. I hate you for not giving a damn about anything anymore. And I hate that this is the way things have to be.

This time, I'm not backing down. This time, I won't accept an apology without some tangeable change on your behalf. I cannot continue to be your keeper, and I can't continue to be your excuse, or to hear them. I can't continue to watch you make an ass of yourself.

With this, I walk. I'm done. I have nothing left for you. If you feel you are ready to make ammense for the times you've hurt me, forgotten me, or let me down; if you are truly ready to start caring about yourself and others again, like you did when we first met, I will be here to hear you. I may even allow you back into my life. It would take time, but you may eventually earn back part of what we had. Until then, I'll leave you with this, and hope you hear it when you think of what we've lost.

With Due Respect,
-Sparky.

"Of all the things I believed in, I just wanna get it over with,
Tears form behind my eyes, but I do not cry, Counting the days that past me by...
I've been searching deep down in my soul, Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old.
Feels like I'm starting all over again, The last 3 years were just pretend, when I said:

Good-bye to you.
Good-bye to everything that I knew.
You were the one I loved,
The one thing that I tried to hold on to..."

-Michelle Branch: "Good-bye to You"