Sleep? What?

I'm sooo tired.

Nathan and I had an "episode" last night. It wasn't fun, but it was needed, and I think we both felt a lot better after sorting out the whole concept of "personal time". After some apologuising, snuggling and Ultimate Fighter with Mike, we went to bed because I was exhausted. Then the real fun started.

I haven't had nightmares like that in a long time. Several times, I woke up scared, breathing hard and soaked in cold sweat, which sucked because my room's getting pretty chilly at night. Aparently, I would talk in my sleep (which I didn't do until he and I started dating...), and say strange things, and when I woke up, I'd say stranger things. He said that there were times when it seemed like I was going to panic, so he would stroke my hair and hold me until I calmed down... he was up until 3am. And now, even though I have work to do, I really just want to sleep. I don't know if it's because of the nightmares, or being at work, or something else, but I'm freezing, I'm damned tired, and my throat hurts...

Yeah, I'm going to keep taking those antibiotics, because the last thing I need is a relapse of Bronchitus, or another bout of Mono...

So, my chores for this weekend are:

1. Romance Seminar Report: 2 pages explaining what we talked about in seminar, what I learned, what was discussed in class... basically making sure I did the work and payed attention.

2. Start my director's notebook, because that bugger's going to be HUGE

3. Nano. I"m at just over 7K, I should be at 10K by the end of the weekend to be on-track.

Nathan and I have agreed that this week is my buckle-down week, for real this time. Just to get to where I need to be. And that works out great for me. Tuesday, I get done for the day at 3.30pm, which means I have from 4-?? to do as much work as I can. And Friday, I'm working until 2, but I want to think about starting some Christmas shopping, so I think Nathan and I might go shopping friday night when he gets done work, even if it's just wandering the mall for a few hours. With any luck, I'll get paid on Friday. Yay!

I think the best, most positive thing that came out of today was from Nathan: He's going to make me a knife! Ok, I know that that sounds strange, but it gives him something to do while I'm working. That way, I don't feel guilty about not being with him, and he has something constructive to do other than work. He even thought about making a few to sell on eBay: his "If I win millions in the lottery and could do anything I want" job is making and selling swords, and this is a nice place to start. Besides, he picked up Magic the Gathering for me, now I want to get into something that intrests him. Though I don't like the fighting aspect of knives, a well-crafted blade does appeal to me, not only asthetically, but because it would give me something tangeable to base D&D weapons on... Ok, I'm a geek. Sue me!

...Well, don't really, I'm broke...for now...

Ok, work, nano, sleep.

Go!