The Build

You know, something's been building inside me for the past couple days. I know it has something to do with my anger towards *cough* certain individuals, and I know it has something to do with my newly developed views on love, obsession and desparation. I'm just not sure where it's going. I have this horrid feeling that it's going to ferment into a ball of pent up rage, and cause massive harm to someone who doesn't deserve it. This is because the person (or people, really...) who most deserve it are people whom I may not talk to for a while, or really shouldn't be confronting for the sake of others involved. Either way, I'm not really liking the way it's making me feel. I'm very edgy, a little wired, and frankly, feeling a bit aggressive. I think maybe I should take up kick-boxing or something. Though, that may make the problem worse...

Today, for all of the sitting on my flat white posterior I did, I got a lot accomplished. First, I finally finished The Golden Compass, which has been known as everything from "the book", to "my Everest", to more recently "the bane of my existance". I really didn't like it that much. I found that there were too many storylines, one or two of which weren't really all that necessary, there was a love plot thrown in at the end which, though slightly predictable, seemed like it was tacked on at the end, and almost too intense for the piece. Not to mention that it was hard to keep up with, and really friggin long. I doubt a kid (as this was for kid lit) would actually have the patience for it. Never mind the reviews, though. Read it yourself and find out. The first book was awsome, and the second wasn't that bad.

I also got about 2/3 of the way through Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone, which, though it's quite different from the movie, isn't bad at all. Some moments actually made more sense than in the movie. I can't wait to start into the rest of the series... At some point. HP&tPS is #4 on the list of 10 for Kid Lit, plus 2 text books, plus whatever I have to read for my other courses. But, I have most of this week, and half of next, to dig a chunk out of that list. Mind you, it may be a small chunk, given that Little Women is next in que, but a chunk nonetheless.

I don't know... I'm really not feeling myself tonight. Maybe it's just a feeling of "ok, done the vacay thing, now let's get on with it...", and maybe it's a bit of a need for a return to chaos. Or maybe I'm just tired, and dehydrated... I do have a headache.

Tomorrow, I will be heading out, returning completed applications, picking up a few things, dropping off more resume's, and likely making another stop at Allisons. Just to browse.

Maybe. Unless I see something good, like Black Trillium or its sequal, or White Oleander. Something I very much want to read, but don't have to right away.

I need a job. My addictions are obliterating my bank account.