I haven't forgotten...

No, I haven't forgotten about my dear little blog, and it's few, but loving, fans, I've just... ugh. This was the worst week of my University career so far. I'll get into more details tomorrow, but for now, I"ll throw this up. I posted this on www.xforums.net for the advice of some very wise people, and figured I'd give others the chance to help:

"Last night, after rehersal and costume shopping, we were waiting for the bus, having a good time chatting and making fun of eachother and whatnot. Well, the topic of sex came up (because it always does when I'm involved...) and I told my good friend Melissa (who was on her way to "celebrate" ber new boyfriend's birthday), that if she had any single friends who were looking for a one night-er or two, to give them my number. Well, she turns to the male lead of the show, and says: "Darlin, this is my friend Sparky. She's looking for cheap sex. You interested?"

He picked me up, wrapped my legs around his waist, pinned me against the wall and kissed me. Full on (well, not quite... he caught me off guard), open mouth kissing. I should point out that he is quite good-looking. And the only reason I hadn't thought of persuing him myself is that I thought he was seeing someone. He's not...really. He has an on-again-off-again which appears to be much like my relationship with Todd.

Anyways, when I got home, I asked my friend Sarah if he was serious about this other girl, and she said: "Don't read too much into it. He flirts with everyone. Don't worry, You'll find someone."

This got me thinking. When did kissing someone become flirting? How did a passionate kiss become the same as a wink and a hair toss? I mean, I know he's affectionate with everyone (hugging, stuff like that, which isn't really flirting either), but that just seemed... Odd? Almost mean?

So, I'm in the shower this morning, overanalyzing this incident (which is something I often do), and I realized this: **My opinion here: things may not be the same for everyone**Flirting is a pretext to (in a simple way) kissing. Kissing is a pretext to extended kissing, or making out, which is a pretext to sex. Now, I'm not easy, but I'm not fridgid either: I usually have sex with a guy anywhere between the first and third date, depending on chemestry.

My Question to Y'all is: Do you concider Kissing a part of flirting (Not peck-on-the-cheek style, I mean, more like what I described above)? Do you feel that allowing kissing as part of flirtation somehow cheapens sex? Basically, am I right in feeling as confused as I do? "

The answers have ranged from "That's NOT at all flirting! GO! GO!!" to "He's a theatre guy, and therefore, it's probably harmless goofing around"... I really can't be sure. I don't want to approach him about it, because a) I'm an executive in the club, and I'm not sure how the hierarchy works, relationship wise, and b) what if I'm wrong? How embarassing would that be? I'm open to any and all comments/suggestions. You can leave them in the comment spot, or email sparkyinthesnow@gmail.com.

That's it for now... I'll explaine my week tomorrow (Monday, that is...) so you'll all understand why I've been off kilter. G'night!