*spoink*

It was 2am, and I was walking back from Sarah's place. It was cold, and dark, and my mouth was dry. And all I can ask of myself is:

Why Do I Keep Doing This To Myself???

I have to be at work by 6.45 am. Same morning. I have plans from the end of my shift at 3pm to the end of the night. I have prose due monday, an essay due tuesday morning, a test tuesday night and a test wednesday morning. I'm not getting more than 3 hours sleep tonight, no matter how I slice it. Grr...

Why do I do it? Because today I made headway on living as a single adult. Today, I took time to make sure my needs were met, and still had time for a swanky new haircut. Today, I spent time with friends, because I needed to. Being surrounded with friends is fuel for me now. Once I'm topped up, I can go for a while without, but I will always need more. When I'm emptied of that, I will stop functioning. And maybe I won't be functioning well tomorrow... that's fine. At least I'll be happy about it.

I may be frazzled, and I may be headed for a meltdown, but at least now, at 2.30 am, I'm contented. And tomorrow will have more to say.

Good morning, Starshine.